EFFERVESCENCE - bubbles in a liquid
" Pikit ka muna. "
Napabuntong-hininga na lamang ako na pinapikit ako ni Shawn. He brought me in a place I don't even know where. I already messaged mom so that she will not worry about me. Tumakas lang ako e, baka ano pa isipin nila.
I closed my eyes as the darkness occurred.
"What should I do next?" I asked.
"I will hold your hand and just follow as I lead, okay?"
"Where are we going, Shawn?"
"It wouldn't be a surprise if I tell you," mahina siyang tumawa, "trust me."
He gently grabbed my hand and we slowly prompted to walk forward. Hindi ko alam kung saan niya ako dadalhin pero alam ko namang wala siyang gagawing masama. Wala akong ibang nakikita ngunit ginagabayan lamang niya ako hanggang sa tumigil na kami sa paghakbang.
"Open your eyes..." sabi niya.
I immediately opened my eyes and looked around.
Colorful flowers.
A candle light table.
Several light bulbs hanging within the rope in the trees apart.
The forest breeze that added the peacefulness of the place.
It was precisely a surprise.
"This is very beautiful!" napatakip ako ng baba ko at nakangiti ko siyang tinignan.
"Ang ganda nga," he said while looking directly into my eyes.
Why you're doing this again? Bakit pinapatibok mo ng mabilis ulit ang puso ko? I want to reassure and ask you, why are you doing this? Parang tanga naman e. I am very confused right now.
This simple surprise melts my heart. It's almost perfect but I don't want myself to assume. Masasaktan lang ako na kapag nalaman kong mali pala ang mga iniisip ko.
Hindi na niya ako mahal pero bakit nararamdaman kong mahal niya pa rin ako?
It's very painful to enjoy the night. I know there are still heartbreaks on his heart that I caused over the past. Pero bakit niya to ginagawa sa akin? Titigil na sana ako. I'm ready to open my heart for someone aside from him, again but he made it hard for me to decide.
Because I still love him.
No one had the chance to change that.
But I want to change that, so bad!
Kasi binigyan niya ako ng mga motibo at dahilan na hindi siya tigilan.
"You planned this?" I bit my lips, afraid to hear his response that this might not for me.
Baka kasi pinatignan niya lang sa akin kung maganda ba o hindi tapos e s-surpresa naman pala sa iba. That this isn't for me. Nakakahiya naman kung masyado akong ma overwhelmed tapos hindi pala para sa akin.
Tumango lamang siya.
"Para kanino ba 'tong surpresa, Shawn? Ang swerte naman ng s-surpresahin mo kasi pinagplanuhan mo talaga," nagpumilit akong ngumiti at dahan dahang lumakad papalapit sa mga bulaklak sa ilalim ng mga ilaw.
"Ako nga ang maswerte sa kanya," he answered.
Tumigil ako sa paghakbang nang marinig ko ang sagot niya. I haven't feel physical pain but emotionally, yes. Hindi nga para sa akin ang gabi na ito. I was just assuming things that will never happened.
Shortcomings were painful. This love is unrequited. Instances are vulnerable. The night was only occupied by darkness despite the colorful flowers and sparkling light bulbs. It broke my heart.
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