Finn's Baby- Complete

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Lydia pov

I heard a car pull up onto the drive. But all hope was lost. There was not a bone in me that thought even the slightest chance it was daddy's car. I knew he wasn't coming back. Daddy left a long time ago. But now, the man he turned into has also left. I heard the door open so I went to see who it was. I left my room, went to the top of the stairs and saw Dan stood next to me uncles. I could tell Dan had been crying and he looked angry. I'm not an idiot. I know why he left despite him not telling me. He left to go and find daddy. And I'm guessing he was unsuccessful

"He's not coming back, is he?" I asked quietly refusing to cry.

"I'm sorry lyd. He's left us" Dan said, he wasn't looking at me but instead at the floor.

"Ok" I said knowing if I said much more I would surely burst into tears. I walked away and stood inbetween mine and Dan's room, and our parents room. Although now I suppose it has no owner. Mummy's dead. Daddy's gone. No one else will ever have this room as there own. As long as my father is an abandoning bastard, then this room will belong to mummy. This house is hers and her spirit will protect the house and keep us all safe.

I walked into mummy's room and sat on the bed, unsure what else to do but knowing I needed to be here. So i did the only thing I could do. I wept. Into mummy's pillow which was no covered with my tears. There was a knock on the door but I didn't have the energy to tell whoever it was to go away. The door opened and I didn't see who it was. But I recognised the voice clearly

"I'm sorry love" Uncle arthur apologised sitting on the bed

"He left" I cried

"I know. Your dad is grieving and-"

"Stop. Don't make excuses for him. He doesn't deserve it" I said coldly. I felt uncle Arthur rub my shoulder as I was lay on my side, facing the wall, curdled up on mummy's pillow

"You're right. What he did was unforgivable. Do you know about your grandad?" He asked me.

"No" I muttered

"Well he left. After my mother died, he left us. It hurt and I know how you're feeling. But finn isn't his father. I know your father and he is a good man. He will be back. Soon he will realise his mistake and he'll return" Uncle Arthur told me

"I don't want him to. He left us. If he returns, he won't be welcome back" I said wiping my tears. I sat up and left the room not wanting to be in there another second. I ran downstairs and found Dan who was sat staring at a photo. I leant over his shoulder and saw it was a photo of mummy.

"I've not seen that before" I told him taking a seat next to him. He didn't take his eyes off the picture when he said

"Looks like mum don't it" he said to me. I took a closer look and realised it wasn't my mother. Although this lady was equally beautiful. She had the light blonder hair, same dimples and facial structure. Same lips and nose. It was as if we're looking at my mother but at the same time, I whole different woman

"Who is that?" I asked

"That was my mum before Nessa. I don't know if you know but Nessa is my sister by blood. By my mum died when I was a baby, our dad didn't leave as such. He just got so drunk that he didn't even notice our presence and we learnt to block him out. Nessa raised me. They look alike don't they?" He explained.

"She's so pretty. Just like mummy. My mother before Nessa wasn't very nice. Although right now I feel it's better there than it is here" i grumbled. He rested his head on my shoulder

"Things will get better. Uncle Arthur is moving in with us because the law says we can't be home alone. Can I ask you something?"

"Anything" I replied

"Would you forgive dad if he came back?" He asked. I thought for a moment

"Yes. I think I would forgive him. But I could never forget. And things would never be the same" I answered. I stood up and walked away feeling overwhelmed by everything. The emotions were making me get a headache, I just wanted to sleep. So i walked up to mummys room and lay in her bed. I got under the covers since I felt like an ice berg and drifted off into a sleep filled with the ghosts of my past haunting me. I saw my father, my mother, grandparents and then mummy. My father was drinking and yelling at me. He was also sobbing. My mother was telling me to cry less. For every tear I cry is one ounce of ugliness that shall never pass. My grandparents are telling me to be brave and not let me guard down. And mummy, well mummy was trying help me. She smiled at me sweetly and told me to look after Dan. He acts tough and strong for me but in reality, he just needs a hug. She told me that she is dissapointed in daddy for what he did, but she knows he will be back for he loves us too much.

As my ghosts spoke to me in my dreams, i was awoken to see people sat around my bed. Dan, uncle Arthur and a maid. I noticed how hot the room was and the worried looks on people's faces

"What's going on?" I asked although my voice was hoarse and came out at barely a whisper

"You were screaming in your sleep. And shaking. You've got a temperature and don't look to good. How do you feel?" Uncle Arthur asked

"I think I'm gonna-" before I could finish the sentence, I turned my body and was sick all on the floor and a little on the bed. But once again, this was not sick. This was blood. The maid jumped back and ran out of the room whilst I lay back down exhausted

"It's alright" Dan soothed me as I went back into a sleep filled with hatred, murder and loss