Finn's Baby- Complete

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Dan pov

I sat next to Lydia as she was half awake. Her eyes were half open, but she didn't seem present. Her skin grew paler every second and she had given up asking for dad. As much as I hate our dad, it pained me to know she had given up. I couldn't stand the thought of her leaving this world thinking he didn't love her. When in reality, he loves her more than anything and only a fool would say otherwise

As I spoke to Lydia with no response, the bedroom door flung open almost knocking it off its hinges. I turned to see the very man I both wanted to hug and shoot. But I figured right now, he was needed. He ran over to Lydia and knelt my her side. Dad kissed her forehead as he cried

"Hey baby girl. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry" he kept repeating as he held her hand. I hugged him from behind since he was crouched down. I felt him lean into me and I could feel the tears falling from my eyes. I didn't realise how much I had missed him. It wasnt just hatred I felt. It was love and the want for a father.

"Daddy" lyd coughed quietly.

"I'm right here my darling. Its OK. Everythings ok" he told her stroking back her hair

"Mummy said she loves you. And she wants you to be happy again. Not just for you, but for us. She said she knows you miss her, but she's always with us. She just can't watch as you walk away from our family. Mummy needs you to promise that you will love us forever. Never leave" Lydia sobbed.

"Mum talks to her in her dreams" i explained

"I promise. And can you do something for me?" He asked. She nodded her head slowly

"Next time you're sleeping, tell your mother i love her so much. And I will be a better father. Its all gonna change now. I promise" he said kissing her hand. Lydia rested her head on daddy's hand as I held onto hers. She soon fell asleep and we just stayed and watched her

"She's dying isn't she?" I asked once I knew she was asleep. Daddy nodded frowning as tears quickly formed in his eyes

"I don't want her to go" I said as all the tears I've been holding in finally got a release. Daddy used is free arm to pull me into his chest. I sat on his knee and cried whilst holding into him.

"I know buddy. Me neither. This time, I'm not leaving. Me and you, we're gonna figure this all out. Together" he cried kissing my head. I nodded against his chest, not having the energy to verbally answer. And there, in my father's arms, I slept for the first time in days.

Finn pov

The next day, Lydia seemed a little better. Her temperature had gone down and she wasn't being as sick as what I've been told. My family forgave me for everything and even sympathised with me. Although I don't think i deserve it. We called a doctor to check on Lydia and he said she was making a miracle recovery. Thank the heavens.

She was still unwell but soon enough, I was sure she would be jumping over every hurdle, running through the fields and playing with Nigel. Riding quick silver like she has done so many times before.

I was downstairs making Lydia some dinner. Dan was out with John and Tommy's kids. I know he is worried about Lydia, but I can't let him stay cooped inside, worrying. Hopefully being outside will distract him from all his worries and let him be a kid again.

I walked up the stairs to my room where Lydia has been staying. She wants to dream and listen to Nessa to she is there whilst I am currently in her bed. Luckily it is quite big so I fit fine. She took a nap an hour ago but I decided to wake her up so she could eat. She can always sleep after food. I set the tray down on the bedside table and went to wake her up. I stroked her hair behind her ear and smiled at her beauty

"Wake up darling" I said gently. She didn't stir

"Lyd baby. Its time to get up. Dinners ready" I said shaking her slightly

"Fine. Guess I have no choice" i said. I went to tickle under her neck knowing that is her weakness. But nothing happened. I began to panick and say her name louder

"Lyd. Come on this isn't funny" I raised my voice. I noticed how much paler she look than a few hours ago. Her skin was a grey colour and her chest wasn't rising as it should. I knew what this meant.

"No" I choked out a sob. I had prepared myself for this. Or tried to. But nothing can prepare you for the pain of losing a child. It's like your entire life just collapses the moment the heart stops beating. I failed to protect this young life I was given the responsibility for. For the first time in so long, I had hope. When she woke up this morning, smiling and talking, I felt like the world had found its missing piece. Now, the pieces have been broken down and lost.

I stroked back her hair as I sat holding her hand, sobbing and taking advantage of the fact I was home alone. There weren't even any staff working here. They had been sent away after Lydia got ill by aunt pol. Apparently they were getting in the way. And now I was grateful to be alone.

My little girl. She looked so small and sickly lay there, life stolen from her body. I was shaking sat beside her, wanting nothing more than to go back to the night of the storm. When I lay in the very bed my daughter has died in, holding my family, protecting them from any fears they had. I heard the front door open and voices but I couldn't bring myself to move. My eyes were fixated on my lifeless baby girl.

Tommy pov

Me and Ada had walked Dan home after he had been out all morning with mine and John's kids. He had been so much happier, like a real boy. Talking about how Lydia had woken up smiling, and how the doctor said she was getting better. I could see the pride in his eyes as he spoke of his family. Something I admired.

When we entered the house, there was a strange feel to it. Something wasn't right and everything was deathly silent. Dan ran upstairs with me and Ada following him. He walked into the room where Lydia was sleeping. Only the tears on my brothers face told me it was more than sleeping

"Dad. What's wrong?" Dan asked, unaware that Lydia was in a forever sleep. One that she won't ever awaken. Finn couldn't help the tears pouring down his face and the shaking of his hands

"Lyd doesn't look good....she's not good though....is she" Dan asked as he moved closer to his sister. He touched her hand but quickly jerked away. I saw his lips quivering as he ran out of the room. Ada rushed over to finn and held him in her arms as I went after Dan. I know he might want time to himself but right now, it isn't safe. He is a danger to himself whilst feeling grief as strong as this