Forbidden Love A Josh Richards story * Completed*

67 - sordid past

He leaves and you turn to cooper
You: what are you doing here?
Cooper: I came to see my girl
You: I'm not your girl
Josh: that's right she's mine
You: how did you get out? Weren't you meant to be in there for 15 years
Cooper: already been 13 I got out on good behavior
You: why are you here?
Cooper: I came to mend our relationship
Josh: * cutting in * she doesn't want to
Cooper: now hold on shouldn't she decide?
Josh: * pointing out * I'm her fiancé
Cooper: you really need to let her talk
You: babe go inside give me a second
Josh: are you serious?
You look at him pleading
Josh: fine
He goes inside to Sam
You: I'm happy here cooper
Cooper: I waited I love you
You: no you don't otherwise you wouldn't have done what you did
Cooper: I want to be with you and I've changed I went to anger management and I had therapy in jail
You: I'm with josh and we have a child
Cooper: you finally got what you've always wanted didn't you? A nice secure home raising a family
You: yeah
Cooper: I'm just sorry it wasn't with me
You: so can you leave?
Cooper: please I just need another chance
You: what do you expect me to do? Break up with josh cause you got out of jail? I can't do that I love him we have a child for goodness sake
Cooper: I want you
You: but I don't and that's the difference between you and me even if we forget josh for just a moment I still can't be with you not after what you did I didn't tell anyone what you did to not portray you as the bad guy
Cooper: can we forget about josh for a second?
You: why?
Cooper: can we do it?
You: ok go on
Cooper: if you weren't in a relationship or a serious relationship even if it was with josh would you consider being with me?
You: I mean if I saw some serious change but I don't know
Cooper: ok but what if I proved it to you? That I had changed?
You: then I don't know cause if it's with josh it'll depend on how serious it was
Cooper: like you've been together for like 6 months?
You: maybe I don't know depends if I can really see you've changed
Cooper: that's all I needed to hear
You: I think you should leave
Cooper: maybe we could hang out some time
You: I'll see
He leaves and you go upstairs after closing the door
You: baby he's gone
Josh: mhm
You: are you ok?
Josh: yep...
You, taking a seat in front of him: what's up?
Josh: nothing I'm fine
You: you're clearly not
Josh: it's ok
You: come on
josh: no I'm fine just leave it
You: baby just talk to me please
Josh: fine you want me to talk to you? I heard your whole conversation
You: how?
Josh: the windows open and it's not like you were talking quietly I heard everything you said including "let's forget about josh" and when he said the same thing you agreed that makes me feel like sh¡t
You intertwine your fingers with his, explaining yourself , trying not to make matters worse: babe it was all hypothetical I would never forget about you for any reason
Josh confides in you: do you know how useless I feel? On top of me not being around much right now I can't help it I feel like I'm not doing anything for you and eventually I feel like you'll leave me for someone better someone's whose around more someone who loves you unconditionally and who you love unconditionally
You: you don't?
Josh: of course I do I love you with everything I have but there's nothing stopping you leaving for someone like cooper
You are confused by what he means by living someone else "unconditionally": I love you unconditionally no one else and what makes you think I would ever go back to cooper
Josh: I heard you though
You: I did that cause I didn't want him to hurt me I didn't want you to see me scared nor terrified
Josh: but still I know I haven't been around much lately and I feel utterly pointless like what can I do? This isn't me this isn't what I'm like I don't usually feel like this this jealousy
You: you haven't been around cause you've been busy working to support your family and you're not useless you're brilliant and I love you for who you are how you make me feel how you make me act I love you for who you are
Josh: can I tell you something?