Forbidden Love A Josh Richards story * Completed*

96 - shocked again

Josh; if I'm being honest no.

Those words shocked you. You had a feeling deep down that that was the truth.

You: so why'd you propose?
Josh: I love you and always had but when I first proposed I really wanted to. But feelings develop and they change.
You: for who?
Josh: don't worry
You: I am going to worry about it if you don't want to get married to me.
Josh: it's none of your business.
You: mads?
Josh looks down and you know: you're in love with her.
Josh: it doesn't matter.
You take off your ring: here take it. We are done.
Josh: what about Sam?
You: what about him? I'll raise him on my own like I have been the past 6 years. Only difference is this time I'll be a single mom
Josh: I would like to still be in his life.
You: for what? Child support? You hardly gave me anything.
Josh: He would want me to be in his life.
You: I'll give him a choice.
Josh: let me ask him.
You: no
Josh: he's my son too
You: he's never been your son. Not since the day he was born. You haven't contributed anything to him.
Josh: you're angry.
You: OF COURSE I AM! YOURE IN LOVE WITH ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS
Josh: WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU SHOUTING?
You: You are my whole life. I don't know what did I do to deserve this
Josh: nothing. I can't help my feelings.
You: but you can.
Josh: it's not mads.
You: who is it then?
Josh: Josie Canseco
You: great. A supermodel. I could never compete with that.
Josh: don't say that!
You: why not? You're not marrying me and we've been together for over 10 years. So basically I've wasted my time.

Josh doesn't say anything
You are so angry and heartbroken. God how you resented him right now. How was he in love with someone else? Were you not enough for him?

You: am I enough?
Josh: yeah of course. You deserve the world. But I'm sorry. It won't be with me right now. Maybe another time in another life we would get married have more kids.
You: why would I ever wanna get with you? I can guarantee if you told me that I would've wasted 10 years and that you developed feelings for someone else this far down the line I would never have got with you.
Josh: I can't help it!
You: but you can lead me on!
Josh: that wasn't my intentions