Holding you like this

Moments in the Sun

It was the next morning, Nick awoke to Charlie curled up into his chest and he knew that today would be a bad day for him as he mumbled a small "Good morning." "Good morning, my love, is today a bad day?" He nodded "Do you want to lie in bed all day?" "Yeah, only to get up to use the toilet." "Of course. Come here, sweetheart." He lifted up his arm as he lied his head on his chest. Nick rubbed his back in circles "It's embarrassing but I'm so scared of losing you." He cried. "It's okay, I'm not going anywhere, I've got you, I'll always be here," Nick promised. Charlie lifted his head to look at his boyfriend. Nick wiped his tears, softly kissing the tip of his nose.

Charlie lied his head on his chest, relaxing completely in his arms "I fell in love with you the minute I laid eyes on you and I will never stop loving you. I don't care what people say about us but that doesn't mean I won't track them down and beat the hell out of them because I will, just say the words. What they are saying about us is so wrong, I'm going to spend the rest of my life with you if you'll let me." Nick rambled. "I will most definitely let you," Charlie assured. "Good," Nick smiled. "Can you just hold me for a while?" Charlie asked. "Absolutely, I'm never gonna let you go, I promise," Nick said, pulling Charlie back into his arms. 

Sarah knocked on her son's door as she opened it and smiled "Is he okay?" "Yeah, he's having a bit of an off day." "The poor thing." She rubbed Charlie's back who faced her slowly as his phone started ringing. He sat up, answering it "Charles Francis Spring, where are you?" He flinched at his mum's tone, hands shaking "I'm at Nick's." "You shouldn't be over there, he'll treat you like shit." "Mum!" He hung up, climbing on Nick's lap. The blonde rubbed his back in circles, holding him close in his arms, resting his head on his shoulder "What's going on?" "My mum said I shouldn't be over here, but I want to," "I know baby, I know." Sarah sat on the bed with her son and son in law "Charlie, love?" "Mhm?" "We'll look after you, okay?" He nodded, tears in his eyes. Nick held him tighter as Charlie pushed him on the bed, hovering over him. 

Nick rolled them over, grabbing Charlie's phone, unlocking it with his boyfriend's face ID, going on his phone, opening his camera roll, looking up at Charlie, leaning down, pulling him into a deep kiss. They pulled away after a few minutes as Nick placed his hand on Charlie's heart, rubbing his chest to soothe the harsh beat of his heart, he looked at him with a troubled look "What?" Charlie asked, crawling away from Nick "I'm going toilet." "Where's your blade?" "In my phone case." "Don't bring it with you." "I'm not."

20 minutes later, Nick was now getting worried and walked in the bathroom, opening the door, narrowing his eyes in suspicion and saw a bottle of Charlie's medicine in his grasp "No!" He screamed and knelt immediately. His face drained of blood when he hurriedly tried to find his pulse "Charlie, what have you done?" He cried as Sarah ran upstairs after hearing her son scream. She picked up Charlie with Nick with him. Nick got him settled in the back seats, head in his lap, bag next to him just in case he awoke. 

As quickly as she could, Sarah got them to the hospital and Nick carried him out and ran towards the entrance of the hospital with a desperation of hope in his heart. A lady barged past everyone with a stretcher, lowering Charlie on it "He swallowed a bunch of pills and his pulse is slowing." Nick cried, tears streaming down his face. His mum came in, pulling her son into her arms. Soon a doctor came out "Are you family of Charlie Spring?" "I'm his boyfriend, how is he? Is he okay?" "He's stable for now. We pumped fluids into his body to flush out the anti-depressants and thankfully you managed to bring him before it could become worse. You may visit him." The two walked in "Mum, can you get a bottle of water please?" "Of course, or do you want a tea?" "Hospital tea is disgusting." She smiled, kissing the top of her son's head as he opened the door.

Nick covered his mouth to stop the sobs from escaping as he staggered towards the brunette who laid there peacefully. He collapsed on the chair and grasped his cold hand in his. Unable to stop himself, sobs wracked his entire body. He reached out and caressed Charlie's cheek slowly but gently as his eyes started to open "Char?" "Nick." Nick sat on the bed next to him, caressing his cheek lightly. Charlie reached out and wiped his boyfriend's fallen tears "I'm so sorry." "Nick, don't say it. I should be the one saying sorry, I tried killing myself and it's not because of you, it's because of Ben, Harry and everyone who's bullied me in the past." Nick took his hands in his, placing them on his chest where his heart was beating "Feel that?" He nodded "That's your lifeline and without me being here, you wouldn't be getting gifts each month, cuddles, dates, baths together." "Yeah."