Heard love || NCT FF

Chapter 17

Everything was doing great! My trip in China was great.

I learned about How mom flew to China to Help Auntie Rini with Taeji's father

They both sued Him.

I know It was too easy to make him disappear but knowing Mom she would do everything to Prevent him from getting out of that freaking cell

I flew back to Korea With mom. Lucas Xiaojun and Hendery almost cried when I left they were really thrilled to spend some time with me. Of course duh Im Ami choi after all. Kidding

I heard Taeji and Taerin already came back with their vacation. I must say it was a successful vacation for them. Looking at their IG posts Jeno and Jiji are doing way too good that I envy them to be honest. As well as Rin and Mark.

Hmm When will I have my person? Pfft! Will I ever even have my person? Lmao

I skipped my way to The cafeteria. Im excited to see Taeji after 3 days. Like I bet she enjoyed well I enjoyed too but not as Much as she did.

On the way Jisung and Chenle are Giggling and Stuff making me KUNfused. I went to them and Greet them

Ami: You both look happy today, What's up?
Chenle: Noona!! Im glad we bumped into you! We have things to ask
Ami: about what? If its about a math problem, Well boys, you asked the wrong person

I chuckled, They gave me a huge smile, Jisung stood right next to me with a notebook on his hand and a pen.

Jisung: Taeji Noona is eating with us today
Ami: Jiji?
Chenle: Yes! So we want to ask what does she like? Like what Food? Does she like it when people talk? Or does she prefer silence? I have way-
Ami: calm down Lele

I giggled giving his shoulder a pat before walking with them

They are nervous lol, I mean Taeji has that aura within her that makes you shiver once you are close to her. Creepy, But you can get used to it.

Ami: first Taeji doesn't like people talking that much when eating, her biggest pet peeve is eating with a mouth open and chewing foods loudly.
Jisung: Ohh okay okay
Ami: she's allergic to grapes.
Chenle: Just like Rin noona!
Ami: well they are both from the same womb lele

Chenle sighed rolling his eyes at me making me laugh. Jisung Asked me about her favorite food and Stuff until we reach the cafeteria.

I went to buy my food as well as Taeji's knowing her she doesn't like to buy her own food. She just love to steal Mine or Taro's food

Taeji: im not really hungry
Jeno: You must ea-
Ami: Ji here's your shawarma and diet coke and your ultimate favorite Pistachio ice cream

I went to their table and put All her food down, she looked at me with a kunfused face while I give him a grin

Taeji: how did you know I was-
Ami: Bumped into Chenle and Jisung on the way, They were so excited so it got me curious therefore i asked them and Boom I know! Im amazing aren't I?

I rambled, for some reason I feel very happy. So happy! But the cramps are not making me happy. Not at all

Wonhee: Ami-
Ami: What?

I raised a brow at Her waiting for her to continue but she just froze on her spot while giving me that puppy eyes for no reason which is cute tbh

Taeji: Try looking more kinder Mimi
Ami: THIS IS THE KINDEST I CAN LOOK JIJI!

I yelled at Jiji. I sighed and Stomped my way out of the cafeteria. I was going to the classroom but I forgot to Give Taeji her lollies.

I sighed and Lazily went back to the cafeteria. I silently went to their table to hand her lollies But I halted when I heard them talking. About me.

Wonhee: there must be a reason behind it, But i think being physical is not the answer
Haechan: She isn't the Ami i know
Chenle: Hyung that-

Haechan scoffed cutting Chenle off, I satred at his face and Wait for him to continue. Though Chenle saw me, but I signaled him to keep quiet

Haechan: The Ami i know would not hurt anyone. The Ami I know has her reasons but is always in control. She isn't like that until we broke up. She changed. She become a bitchy girl that beats people up for no fucking reason she become a bitchy whore-
Taeji: Fucking ass-
Ami: Whoa I didn't think you thought of me like that

I bitterly uttered, They all look back and avoided my gaze. My heart hurts from this. It fucking hurts. I don't know why the fuck this hurts. Is it because They are talking about me? Or is it because The person that I once loved before or maybe still love is talking about me that way

Taeji: Mi-
Ami: I may be a bitch but I was never a whore. Unlike you who slept with girls even though you know I still love you. Im sorry that Im a bitchy whore.

I gave them a small smile slowly running away from them. Running as fast as I can. Running to my Car. Tears falling on my cheeks. I drove myself home.

I didn't know that hearing those from him would be this painful. I never know he thought of me Like that. I never know he could say that to me. I do not know if who really changed.

Is it me who changed? Or You hyuck?

I was broken. In pain. But i never thought of changing who I am. I never thought of changing the ami you loved. Because you loved me because I was like that. I never changed hoping that you will still come back.

Masking everything is not the answer at all i guess. But I masked it all because I do not want you to see the broken Ami. I do not want you to see that I am in pain. That I was a wrecked. I do not want you to come back to me because you feel guilty for tearing me apart. I do not want you to see that you broke me.

A year after we broke up I slowly try to forget you even exist, why? Because if I know you exist It will be harder for me to not beg you to come back.

You left me broken. You left me in pain. But i still choose to love you. The love I have for you remains. Even I cursed at you in my head for a million times. I can't forget you. I badly want to kneel and Beg for you to come back But I cant do that. I cant when You clearly let me go in your own will. I can't have you for myself again because I want you to be free.

I wanted to hate you but I end up loving you. I wanted to forget you but you were too precious to forget. I did let you go. But that doesn't mean I stopped loving you.

Hearing those words coming from you. Coming from My Hyuck is very painful. I do not want to see you I want to forget the pain I want to move on, i want to forget you. I want to Find myself in a world without you. I have to be away. I need to be away. This pain, is not bearable. This pain, will make me crazy. This pain, will make me want to dissipate. This pain, will be forever remembered.

You cause this pain and I will go away. I will run away from you. To forget you. To get rid of this pain. Lastly to forget my love for you.

I guess for the last time I want to tell you that I love you, My safe place .

TO BE CONTINUED
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