Adriana

|06| Selfish

We were all silent so far

My siblings still being in shock and me..... in shock too but also a little hurt and frustrated.

Goodnight beautiful

I mean seriously? He's still playing it off as if nothing happened when something clearly did. Why is it so hard for boys to just be straight up with what they want

Santi and Lola's conversation knocked me out of my thoughts, "So it's a mental thing?" He questions

"Yeah.... But people adding their input only makes it worse"

"Oh so she's an eating disorder specialist now" I mutter whilst looking out the window

"I can hear you you know" My sister says annoyed

I look back at her with a sarcastic smile, "Glad to know"

"You're just mad that it took you this long to realise what was going on"

I sit up in my seat, "And is there anything else that Miss Ed specialist would like to educate us on or do we have to wait for another death scare for her to realise that she should've spoken up earlier"

Enzo glances at me as my sarcastic smile drops, "That was low" Santi says seriously

"You're part of the problem too" Lola says to me with that stupid voice that sounds like she's on the verge of tears

I turn back to face the front as Enzo parks the car, "Well at least it wouldn't be ninety percent my fault if Carmen died"

"Fuck you Adri, I wish it was you in that hospital bed instead"

That one hurt not gonna lie

She slams the car door behind her before heading up the porch steps and Matty frowns from behind the living room window (he came back with mom and Daniel). I'll be real, I didn't want to say any of that.... I was just so mad (even though it wasn't because of her) and I couldn't help it.

"You know Lola may be in the wrong but your the main problem" Santi says from behind me

"That's what you think"

"You've always been jealous of Carmen and you know it, that's why you tease her about the way she looks" Is the last thing he says before getting out

I close my eyes as the door slams for the second time, "What's going on with you today?"

"You were mad at her too-

"No I was annoyed, but even so you don't see me shaming her."

I don't reply to my older brothers comment

"And weren't you supposed to go out tonight?"

"Just leave it alone" I mutter before reaching for the door handle

"Look Adri I know you don't think I care when it comes to your love life but if someone's hurting you then you can tell me" Enzo says softly

I finally look back at him, "Why does someone have to be hurting for you to care about them"

When he doesn't reply I take that as my sign to get out of the car

"What happened?" Matty asks as I shut the door

"Nothing, go to bed"

He frowns as I head up the stairs

Today has just been shitty overall, but at least I got to learn two things. One, I'm a total bitch and two..... I've really gotta stop trusting guys.