If Only

Thirty Six

Charlotte Crawford

The coming back home from the hospital part was the worst. The reminder of the incidents that took place two weeks prior just as we entered

I went to work after a week and Nate insisted me to not put my life on hold just cause he had to. But I hadn't come back here, I'd sleep at the hospital beside him. I'd work late hours and then go straight there

I didn't want to smother him, but I didn't want to leave him. But as we walked out of the elevator the rememberance of it all filled in

I never fully felt at home here, it wasn't quite the place where I wanted our daughter to grow up. But Nate made me feel at home with him so I never really mattered to me, but now it was different

I looked to him, he was thinking it over to. It wasn't safe here, the protection was barely anything. Security paid off and fans sneaking in. He looked to me "you want to move don't you?"

"No, why would you say that?" He sighed

"You've never liked it here" he raised his eyebrows at me as I shrugged

"It's just.. it's not safe and.. I want to find a place that truly feels like home, we don't have to"

"I don't want every time you come home walking in to have the memory of what happened to me in your head"

"It's just, it's not safe at all and it's so high in the sky and-" he pulled me in for a kiss to end my tangent of the cons

"I'll have Luca my assistant find places for us to look in the city" I smiled grateful at him

"Could I make you something to eat?" He shook his head knowing full well I'd burn something

"Marcos one of the chefs will come later and make us dinner" he leaned his body against the island table

"Want me to help you upstairs?"

"I'll have Will come over and do it later you should not be helping me. I've already caused you and the baby so much stress" he looked guilty in a way

"You being alive and okay is all that matters, now let's go I'm putting you on couch rest"

"Bossy much? You can't tell me what to do"

"I can and I will, couch now" he slowly made his way to the couch laying back

"Your sexy when your bossy you know that right?" He says down on the sofa sinking in

"Oh well you'll be able to take me and make me yours in 6 weeks" he rolled his eyes

"I don't always follow the rules amore, how can I when you look like that" I felt my cheeks heat as he spoke "especially you acting like my nurse, I should order you an outfit" I rolled my eyes

"What are you gonna do when you go to work, you can't stop me from exercising"

"I have people coming every few hours to babysit for the next few weeks" he looked irritated

"Your joking?"

"I really need you to take this seriously and heal properly" I threw a fuzzy blanket on top of him