𝐍𝐄𝐖 𝐊𝐈𝐃 || ruel van dijk

06 : liar liar

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chapter six ~ liar liar

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❀ maddison ❀

ruel <3

today 11:09 am

omg i'm so sorry for not replying!!

i was going to reply straight away and thank you for the sweet - out of no where msg

but mum took my phone since i wasn't eating the breakfast she made hahahah 

i just stole it back heheh

also i'm sorry if i made you worried 

orr that i was ghosting your msgs.

 my phone died and i fell asleep not to long after

but same goes for you as well <3

ruel <3

oh thats okay <3

ruel <3 deleted 1 chat

oh it's cool haha :)

anywayss wyd now ?

about to have a shower haha

ill msg you when i'm out byeee

ruel <3

okayy bye :)))

i put my phone down besides me on my bed, a sigh of guilt escaped my mouth. my mum didn't take my phone because i wasn't eating breakfast , my phone didn't even die last night and i'm not about to shower. 

but what i did do WAS ghost him, i just couldn't tell him that i listened to every song he's ever made or sang live, read around 30 different news articles about him, seen more pictures of him than i have in my camera-roll and basically did a whole research study on him. 

but i couldn't keep lying to him either, and the most frustrating thing about this all is that i don't even know if i classify ruel as a 'friend' or if he even does. 

i don't want him to feel like i'm using him for fame or anything, ruel hasn't even opened up to me about him being famous! i just don't want to seem like a fan to annoy him, maybe this whole 'project' thing was a bad idea.

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i couldn't keep this guilt and anger inside of me any longer, i had to tell someone. my only option, the person i trust most in my life.. my best friend. 

i did have a few friends, mainly the girls in my friend group but there were a few others as well. don't get me wrong i love all my friends, they've all helped me through so much. but none of them really understood me, none of them besides emila. 

emila and i have been best friends since i could remember, some of the girls in our group even get jealous of us that we aren't constantly arguing and starting unnecessary drama with eachother. emila has always been my biggest supporter throughout everything and has never dared judged me, i love her more than life itself.