infinity.///ashtray story, euphoria.

part 21

tw.

y/n's pov:

"ash's in the back" fez says as soon as i walk in

im in oversized joggers, no makeup and my hairs in a messy bun. my under eyes are dark and my thighs are littered with fresh cuts that sting everytime the fabric touches them. i'm a mess...

i just give fez a nod and head to the back.

i walk in and throw $100 on the table infront of ash.

"what's this for" he asks looking up at me

"how much can i get with that?" i question not making eye contact with him

"what do you mean" he knows what i mean, fucking dumbass

"how much WEED can i get with $100?" i say emphasising on the weed part

"why would you need that much weed" he asks

"because" i shortly reply

he lets out a huff and bags me up some weed.

"what you gonna do with this much weed?" he questions handing me the bag

"go home, lock myself in my room, roll blunts, smoke them for a couple of days, get more money, come back here and do the same" i say looking up.

"oh yo- you don't look that great" he says stunned

"thanks, appreciate it" reply giving him a tight smile

"no- i didn't mean it like that. are you okay?" he asks actually sounding concerned

"yeah i'm okay" i lie

"but why are you gonna do all of that?" he questions referring to the list i told him a couple of seconds ago

"to forget"

he looks at me, pity in his eyes.

i don't need no one's pity but it feels nice that he cares.

"you don't need to forget that way, you don't have to smoke your whole life away. just go and sit on the sofa and chill with me for a bit, okay?" he nods towards the sofa in the corner of the room

i nod and go and sit on the sofa, not arguing with him because i'm too tired.

"how about you stay with me and fez for a little while?" he suggests

"i mean- are you sure? i don't want to burden yous and fez might not be okay with it" i say

"you wouldn't be burdening anyone and fez would obviously let you stay with us, he loves you more than he loves me" he chuckles

"plus i know your uncle has been busy with work and is hardly home so you'll have company" he adds trying to get me to stay with him

"okay fine, i'll stay with you and fez for a bit" i say rolling my eyes

my mood has already changed

"YO FEZ" ash shouts

i hear steps coming our way, then the door slams open.

fez is stood there looking very worried.

"what, what's wrong?" he rushes out

me and ash look at eachother trying to hold our laughter in.

"n-nothing can y/n stay at ours for a couple of days" ash says in between laughs

"fuck you, you actually scared me. i thought something was wrong but yeah ofc she can stay" he angrily replies.