I'll always love you / marcanne / Marcy x Anne

Long night

!Warning!
!This chapter contains body dysmorphia and sh!

Anne pov

I had so much fun with Marcy today! We went to the mall and I got this adorable frog stuft animal that looks exactly like Sprig! We also got matching bracelets! GAHH I LOVE HER SO MUCH!! Then I flop onto my bed and take a nap.

A couple of hours later

I wake up to have my room pitch black. How long was I out for? I check the time, 12:37? Jeez I was out a long time. I turn to look at my mirror. Oh yeah, last night. I walk up to it and stare in it. Why are my cheeks so big? They're like a chipmunks. I then look at my body. Why am I so fat? God look at me. I'm so ugly.

My thoughts slow down as I realize that I definitely look pathetic. I'm sitting on my floor sobbing. How pathetic. My mind drifts to last night. Marcy saw me like this. I start to hit myself. "I'm so stupid. I can't believe she saw me like this!" I blurt it out but only in a tone I can hear.

"I'm pathetic." I hit myself harder. I pull my hair. I deserve this. "I'm pathetic." I repeat. I begin to scratch myself. I deserve pain. I'm just a burden to the people around me. My skin starts to sting. I deserve this. I crawl to my desk. I take apart my pencil sharpener.

I deserve this.

The morning

I wake up. I look around my room. I then look at my wrists. Why am I so stupid. I fall face first into my pillow.

*Bing

I open up my phone to see a text from Marcy.

Mar Mar
Wyd?

Me
Absolutely nothing
I just woke up

Mar Mar
Oh no did I wake you up :((

Me
No Mars I actually just woke up on my own :))
It was a long night last night

Mar Mar
Oh no
What happened :(

Me
Can we talk in person about this
I know we just saw each other yesterday but I don't wanna talk over text

Mar Mar
We can meet at the park give me 20 minutes

Me
Ok see you there :))

I turn off my phone. I don't want her to think I'm pathetic. No Anne. Bad thoughts. Bad Anne.

As I walk into the park I scan for Marcy. My eyes meet hers and I walk over to the swings. "So Anne what did you want to talk about?" I sit down next to her. So you know how the other night I was looking in the mirror.. you know what happened."

Marcy's face changes to a sorrowful expression. "I looked in the mirror again. This time it was worse though. I started to punish myself for being weak. It then escalated to this." I roll up my sleeves. Marcy gasps and tightly hugs me.

"I'm so sorry you went through that. I'm sorry I couldn't be there. I love you Anne." Marcy's hug tightens and I hug back. "Don't be sorry Mars."

We sit there in each other's arms. Just me and her. I kiss her on the forehead. She then buries her head into the crook of my neck.

"I love you so much Mars."