"What?! Czaven, you're crazy!" Ate Venice hissed angrily.
Wala siyang gustong ilihim sa ate niya. Kaya ng natulog si Heazen ay dali-dali siyang umakyat sa condo lalo na't panay na ang bisita ng ate niya simula n'ong nalaman nitong tumatakas siya.
"Ate, Heazen already gave me a chance---"
"Gave you a chance to fool him? This is not a great idea!"
"P-pero ito na ang pinakahinihintay ko... You know that I love Heazen since then. I wanna be with him."
"Czaven, you're like walking in a thin bridge. That's too risky! You're fooling Heazen and you...alam mo namn ang sabi ni Doctor Santos, 'di ba? Na unti-unting humina na naman ang puso mo.."
Her heart ached on that. Doctor Santos told her last week that her heart is getting weaker again. Nagtataka siya gayong ang sabi ni Tito Spade dati ay okay na siya but when their family Doctor starts checking up on her, parang bigla siyang bumalik sa dati.
"I don't want Dr. Santos to check on me. He's just making me sick! I want Dr. Spade." Giit niya.
Napailing ang ate niya sa katigasan ng kanyang ulo.
"Dr. Spade is a very busy person, Czaven. And he's not making you sick, you just don't want to accept the fact that you're getting weak again!"
She remained deaf. Doctor Santos keeps emailing him to see him on his clinic but she refuse to do so and be the guardian angel that Heazen wanted.
"Nasaan na ba ang mga pakpak mo at ako na ang magbabalik." Heazen said in frustration as he lose the last strand on his patience.
It was like a dagger that pierce her heart. Para na rin nitong sinasabi na napupuno na ito sa kanya. Nakakairita ba ang pagiging clumsy at dumb niya? Well, she has to pretend! Or yes...sometimes she's not pretending anymore because she's really naïve over some things.
"Y-you don't want me here?"
Gusto siyang abutin ng binata pero agad siyang tumakbo sa silid nito. She cried there and when she heard that he left, umalis na rin siya sa condo nito saka pinuntahan ang condo niya sa itaas.
"Ayaw mo talagang makinig, Czaven? You're hearting already, stop na." Sermon na naman ang inabot niya pagkarating niya sa condo.
"D-doctor Santos told me that there's a growing chance that...that I'll die, Ate. I want to spend my last days with the person I love." She cried.
Her big sister's face softened. Lumapit ito sa kanya at niyakap siya ng mahigpit.
"You're the only angel that's pain in the ass... Ate will help, what ever makes you happy, you deserve to be happy."
She was indeed the happiest, she was genuinely happy, the moments they shared was dreamingly, was seems to be easy on the surface but beneath on her happy smiles was guilt and effort.
"Kuyang Guard, everytime I'm with Heazen, just ignore me, okay? Pretend that you don't see me." Pakiusap niya sa guard.
"P-pero, Ma'am, baka magtataka po si Mr. Benjamin at pagalitan po ako."
Nagtinginan sila ng Ate Venice niya. Dumating si Kuya Klaz at ito na ang kumausap sa guard at binayaran ito para mapapayag.
"The clothes were fix already. Lahat ng binili ni Heazen sa 'yo ay nagbili na ako ng kapareha para bagong-bago talaga at naroon pa rin ang tag. Just put it inside his closet and make it seem untouched." Her Ate Venice said.
She nodded. Nasa plano na niya lahat. Even the food that Heazen cook, the food delivery, nasagawa na niya. She had to make sure that she live no trace that she's real, that she's just indeed a guardian angel.
"Ako ang nahihirapan para kay Heazen, Czaven. Just tell him the truth, please..." Problemadong saad ng ate niya.
"Heazen will eventually get over me, Ate. Just like what he did years ago. Sinuportahan siya ng mga Benjamin para maka-abante mula sa sitwasyon na pag-aakalang may schizophrenia siya. 'Yan lang ang naisip kong paraan para hindi masyadong masakit---"
"Are you hearing youself, Czaven? Hindi masyadong masakit? Mas masakit ang ginagawa mong 'to ngayon!" Hindi napigilang bulyaw ng ate niya.
Napatayo rin siya at naiiyak na hinawakan ito sa kamay.
"Please, Ate... Mas mahirap kasi kung m-malaman niyang totoo ako p-pero mamatay rin naman. Mas makakaahon pa siya kung maisip niyang hindi ako totoo."
"You're not dying! Please, Czaven. I-I know I've tolerate you pero hindi ko kaya. This will surely hurt Heazen big time. Your selfishness will only hurt him!"
Gusto man niyang sumagot pero matinding sumakit ang kanyang puso. Nanghihinang bumagsak siya sa sahig, bago siya mawalan ng malay ay narinig niya ang pagsigaw ng ate niya.
"Czaven, did you take the medicine I gave you? Pahina na ng pahina ang puso mo, hija. I don't think a heart transplant is possible for you. Your heart is too weak. Baka...baka isang buwan na lang, hija..." Malungkot na balita ni Doctor Santos.
She's still om her condo unit, mukhang pinapunta lang si Doctor Santos dito.
"I-I'm taking it r-regularly. P-pero wala na po bang ibang gamot? Mas lalo k-kasi akong nanghina sa...gamot." Nanghihinang sagot niya.
"Ah, eh, 'yon talaga ang gamot, hija. Huwag mo na lang tigilan sa pag-inom."
She just nodded weakly. Isang buwan. She wanted to make the best of it with Heazen pero pati ang mga pinsan nito ay naiisip nang may sakit si Heazen at walang Angel na nag-i-exist. That was Klaz said, her spy.
"I will take care of the CCTV Footages, Czaven. Iibahin ko ang footage na wala ka, so that I'll have a proof that you really don't exist."
Pumihit ang sakit sa dibdib niya pero pinilit niyang tumango at ngumiti. She know this is a selfish move. She's a selfish person, nagawa niyang magpakita dito, nagsinungaling, pinaikot ito at ngayon naman lolokohin dahil 'yon lang ang naiisip niya para hindi ito masyadong masaktan. Pero alam niyang masakit pa rin. Kasi ngayon pa lang, dama na niya ang sakit.
Siguro...siguro ito na ang parusa niya. She's been so greedy, she's obsessed, she had been a bad child and this was her punishment. Babawiin ulit ang puso niya. Kasi hindi siya malinis magmahal. She failed to have a pure heart that's why He's taking it back. Kaya ipapaubaya na niya ang buhay niya Dito, kasi siguro...hanggang dito lang siya.
