Forever and Always

Chapter 11) Melody in my head

Bridge looks confused." What do you mean?", She asks. 

" I wanted to talk about stuff, But no matter how many times I whistled you didn't come. Are you mad at me?", The words are tumbling out of my mouth in a rush.

"No I'm not mad. I stayed at Abby's yesterday", She replies watching me curiously. 

"I called and texted.", I say. 

"My phone died", She says.

 Oh

Now I feel embarrassed. "Did you think she was dead or something?", Marcus asks me, barely holding in his laughter.I feel my cheeks go red."Well she never came out of her house." I say. 

"Why didn't you ask her mom?", Abby said, tilting her head with curiosity.tomatoes got nothing on me with how red my face turns. 

"I didn't think of that", I mumble. Marcus and Abby look at each other. And then they burst out laughing. "It's not my fault" I mumble. "If someone was missing and you were worried about them, what would be the first thing you did?"

"Tell their parents", they both say in unison. 

"If you are missing, you'd be screwed because Zavier wouldn't think to tell your mom." Abby said to Bridge, which made Marcus laugh even more. dimples and all. Marcus and Abby had tears running down their faces.

soooooo Glad they solve their problems.

"so funny", I muttered, deciding to go to homeroom early.

 Seeing me walk away makes Abby and Marcus howl harder.

screw them.

I feel a hand on my arm. I look down to see Bridge grinning up at me. I'm a full-foot taller than her and love to make fun of her for it but this time I decide not to since she was the only one who hadn't laughed at me. I could tell she had wanted to. By the way she was biting her lip.

I wanted to be that lip.

Wait what?

I focus on what she's saying. "Sorry I worried you", she says, her eyes twinkling. 

"Whatever", I say.

She sober's up her expression. "really, it's sweet", She reassures me.

We start walking the homeroom. 

"What did you want to talk to me about yesterday?", she inquires.

"nothing much." I reply.

She raises her eyebrows. "You sure about that?", she questions.

"Yep." I reply. "I was more worried if anything." 

"If you say so.", she responds.

We continue to chat about little nothings and I feel lighter. 

Bridge has always made me feel lighter. 

We're almost at homeroom when I feel like I'm being suffocated. I looked down and see two tan arms around my stomach. "Hi Z!" she squeals. Again I internally wince at the nickname. "Hi Lila.", I respond "How are you" "Amazing now that I've seen you." she replies.

"Hi Lila",  Bridge says. 

Suddenly Lila goes on her toes, and kisses me. 

Hard.

I know she was only doing this because Bridge is here. She saw us talking, so now she wants to make sure Bridge remembers I'm hers. To reassert her dominance.She steps back. 

"Hi Bridgette", She says, smiling the fakest smile ever.

The lightness I felt before is gone.

The easiness too.

With Lila, it always felt so hard. 

It shouldn't have to feel so hard.

The starting bell rings. "bye Lila", I say and go into homeroom. I know Bridge followed me in.

Crap.

We have a seating plan now on the whiteboard and it's by last name.

Just great.

Me and Bridge aren't sitting close anytime soon. I sigh into my seat. Homeroom is basically a class to do homework for classes that day.I did all the homework the teachers gave yesterday. It was just reading some chapters and some textbooks and preparations for the lessons today.

Mr Lind was very serious about staying in our spots, so I couldn't even talk to Bridge. After a few minutes, my mind starts to wonder.

I think of Lila and Bridge. 

Lila was jealous and loved to text other boys. Which wouldn't be a problem if she wasn't so secretive about it. But then she has a problem when I even look at another girl, especially if I'm talking to Bridge. She always managed to make me feel bad when I got annoyed at her for texting other boys. "Don't you trust me", she'll ask. 

Bridge was... Bridge. The girl I always couldn't wait to talk to. Who made me feel light and easy. Whoose smile I craved.I haven't felt this care for someone ever. I hated hearing Lila's voice now, but I couldn't wait to hear Bridge's. 

And I know deep down that if it had been Lila that I couldn't reach, I wouldn't have cared.

How I feel for Bridge, I should be feeling for Lila. 

 The Lila Fallerton is my girlfriend. Lots of boys would kill to be in my place, but still I come to the realization that I have to break up with Lila. It's not fair to her to be with me when Bridge is the melody that's stuck in my head. 

She'll want to know the reason and I don't want to lie to her. She'll think me and Bridgette were going behind her back, that she had the right to act the way she did. With the jealousy and everything.

But as I think about it some more, I conclude that I don't actually care.Bridge would obviously know it's not true. Abby and Marcus too. And as long as I have those three on my side, I'll be fine.

Maybe I'll do it at the end of today, I think.Now the question is what exactly am I going to say to Lila. 

I don't want to sound hesitant and have her try to convince me that it's a bad idea but I don't want to be in an insensitive Jerk either. 

I should do it the next time I see her.

The sooner the better.

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