Pairings: vampire!Alexander x John
Warnings: cringe
Time: Hamiltime
A/N: i wore glasses while writing this to sound smart with the dialogue, cause Alex's a vampire and is immortal so he's been around for longer and knows more smart words
also, i was gonna have Alexander be the vampire but i asked my friend and they said he'd be too creepy and weird as a vampire, but I realised Alex would just work better as a vampire for this one shot
and (last one i promise) i was gonna wait for October to post this, but i'm impatient and this was sitting in my drafts for way too long so here's an early Halloween gift
Alexander wasn't always certain about his relationship with John. He knew he had feelings for him. He knew by the way he blushed whenever their hands brushed against each other's, the way butterflies swarmed in his stomach whenever he lay dangerously close to him when he was pretending to sleep in the shared tent.
You couldn't blame Alex, there was a lot to be confused about with their relationship. Alex had always told himself not to bother with human relationships, whether they be platonic or romantic, he knew they would only be a waste of time and heartache. When he met John he definitely didn't expect to be tossing out his beliefs like a scrap piece of paper just for a human. But John was different. He made him feel different - more accurately, like he wasn't as different as he really was. Like he actually belonged in the world. He gave him a completely new outlook on life. Though he wasn't exactly surprised when the blushing and butterflies came up, he definitely wasn't happy.
A human and a vampire together was something Alex could only dream of.
He'd kick himself each night, regretting ever telling John the truth about who he was. When he told John he was a vampire, he expected him to leave, to run away terrified. Hell, part of Alexander wanted that reaction. At least then he wouldn't have to deal with the complicated feelings he developed for John. But no. John accepted him. He promised he wouldn't tell anyone and that he wouldn't leave.
Maybe, he and John could've had a chance together if Alexander didn't tell him the truth. Maybe John would've considered being with him if he thought he was a human. But now, Alex's hopes of being with John were even lower.
How could a human ever learn to love a vampire?
So, Alexander was left with a dilemma: tell John and possibly get rejected and lose his friendship with him, or never tell John and eventually live to see him die, and live out the rest of his life wondering what he would've said.
Alex knew what he had to do.
"John?" Alex whispered, almost scared of speaking too loudly. It was a dark and silent night, the only sound coming from the soft breeze outside the tents.
John shuffled on his side to face the vampire, eyebrows furrowed with concern, "Alex? What's wrong?"
Looking everywhere but John's eyes, Alexander took a shaky breath, "I... I need to tell you something."
John sat up from the thin blanket on the floor, Alex hesitantly following suit, "Anything, Alex." he whispered softly.
"John... before I met you I never cared for humans. I'd outlive them by thousands of years. I never bothered getting to know any. But for some reason I bothered with you. I care for you deeply. And the longer I'm with you the more it pains me to know that one day you'll be gone, and... I don't want you to be gone before I tell you the truth."
John stared at Alex deeply, his heart pounding with fear as he waited for him to continue.
"I love you Jackie," he confessed, a smile growing on his lips as he continued, "I-I didn't even know what love was until I met you. You completely changed my life for the better, and I couldn't love you any more if I tried." Alex's smile dropped as quickly as it appeared when he realised the possible negative outcomes from this confession, "But I understand if you wouldn't feel comfortable around me anymore after-"
John placed his hand on Alex's cheek, not even aware of the bright blush colouring his cheeks, contrasting to his usual pale complexion, "Lexy," he whispered, "I love you too. And I wanna be with you as long as time will let me."
A wide smile grew on Alex's face, "You do?"
"More than anything."
