The Truth of Ace

Two

Madeline Love

"Lila? Deary" her voice echoed in my mind as the vision of him cut out. That he was still around me and that what I had was a freak nightmare

But as I opened my eyes to see Gwenyth with a tray of breakfast and the cold empty spot in the bed next to me. I knew that it was infact no nightmare at all

"You have class in an hour or so, I figured I would wake you and give you some breakfast before class" I m mumbled a thank you and she looked as if she wanted to say something but held back

"I'll check back in later, if you need anything please let me know?" I wanted to stay in bed, but I got up to use the bathroom I had to pee like crazy

After I finished my business I looked in the mirror. A girl who I didn't quite recognize stood in place of me, she looked unwell, tired and almost raccoon like with the bags under my eyes

I stripped down stepping onto the cold shower tile and embraced the water as it shot onto my skin burning me. I knew I'd have to call Sloan soon and tell her the truth, but I didn't want to

I guess that's a big piece of me. I always felt bad for sharing my endless pain with Sloan because she had to watch me endure. So the best case for me was avoidance of any and everyone at the moment. I need my time to process, I may even be a coward and ask Gwenyth to do it for me

But now with each day that comes, I have to use it to heal. Just pray for him to come home sooner or later, millions of women do this for their husbands each year.

Why can't I do it for Ace?

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4 days later

I couldn't believe my eyes as I stared down at the two pink lines displayed on the stick, giving me the middle finger as I still sat squat down on the toilet. It felt as though time had stopped, all of the past didn't matter and it only led me to this moment "that mother fucking deal breaker!"

I needed him, no I wanted him. I have avoided every single human being I know and love for the past 5 days. It took me two months to realize that I haven't gotten my period and my odd obsession with blueberry pancakes.

I wondered how far along I was, if Kingsley was okay. If Ace would ever know I was pregnant and if he'll ever meet them. My mind was racing on a track, I was on the verge of a mental break down.

I hadn't really eaten in days and stayed away from alcohol thankfully. But I only sat up and went to class and then back to bed, nothing more. The ring was practically glued to my finger, but when I looked at it I felt rather sad.

I shook the test, but it's not like I could shake the line away, it's not an etch a sketch. I was suspicious the second my boobs stung this morning and the realization of my no longer existent menstruation hit me.

We were meant to do this when he came back. Have a family together, it was just supposed to be the puppy now. I already made a list of shelters to go to sometime soon. But I think that needs to go on pause for now. Because now I have something more important than a hypothetical puppy, a real baby.

I placed my hand to my bloated belly "just me and you Kingsley" I couldn't help but form a smile between the tears

We were having a baby, a little boy or girl would be joining us in some odd months. I had to book an appointment, I had to tell someone, anyone!