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fifthteen

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bruce yamada

i felt my heart drop.
i just stared, i didn't know how to react. tears starting to fall down my eyes.

i watch as the girl runs off waving to vance before leaving

does he even care for me? why didn't he pull away? what the fuck is happening? why is this happening? he lied to me, why did he lie to me? did he actually like her? she wasn't really making her ex jealous was she?

i cant think straight, i get on my bike and ride, ride away, not knowing where i'm going. shit i should have talked to him. asked why the fuck he did that. why the fuck he decided to lie to me. he didn't mean anything he said to me. fuck everyone, fuck this school.

i don't know where i'm riding to, i soon feel myself stop infront of a house. i drop my bike and walk up to the door. i feel tears rolling down, it's been so long since i've cried like this. i look down at my hands, theyre shaking. i see tears fall into them.

i gain the confidence to knock, i stand there. hoping it opens

i hear a dog barking from inside then some yelling. the door soon swings open, "bruce? what are you doing here? oh my god are you okay!?", a familiar boy is there, robin arellano, i don't know why i went to robins. we were never close. we only hung out when it was in a group or with finn after some games.

"im sorry for just showing up like this, i don't know why i came here. i just, i just need someone to talk to" i feel more tears fall down, i feel them fall on my shirt, i taste the saltiness of the tears in my mouth

"don't apologize come in!" he moves out of the way, i walk in and he closes it behind me. "here come sit down do you want some water?" he asks me, "no thank you" i sit down and robin follows and sits next to me "do you wanna talk about.." he trails on, it's clear he doesn't know how to word it "why i'm crying? i saw vance... kiss this girl, ava" i let out a sigh, "what.." he responds "yeah, this isn't the first time they had some sort of romantic experience or whatever" "yeah.. i saw his uh. his insta post" he looks at the wall avoiding eye contact

am i making him uncomfortable? maybe i should go, i don't wanna make him uncomfortable

"i'm sorry i shouldn't have come" i attempt to stand up but he soon grabs my arm "no it's perfectly fine don't worry about it" he reassures me

even tho we barley talked i felt as if i could tell him anything. i don't know why. he was always really caring about finn. defending him from buzz, matt, and matty.

— 2 hours of comforting later

"what do you think i should do?" i ask, there tears have calmed down but are still kinda there, "i mean, i'm not saying you should do this, but i think you should maybe hear him out. or just break up with him. if he's done this before there's no point of accepting another fake apology" i nod at his respond, "i think i'll meet him at the bleachers" i tell him, "do you need a ride?" he asks me "no i think i'm good but thank you robin" i smile and soon leave waving goodbye.

i text vance telling him to meet me at the bleachers. i get there about 10 minutes after texting him, he soon gets there 5 minutes after

"hey yamada" i look up and see him, i wanna just cry on the spot. i cant keep letting him hurt me tho...

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"you okay bruce?" vance questions sitting next to bruce on the bleachers, it's silent for a bit, "bruce?" he calls out

"we need to break up" bruce struggles to say. the words stuck in his throat. tears slowly forming in his eyes.

"what, why?!" vance slightly yells getting defensive. he tried holding back the tears he felt forming. "i saw you. and a girl. she kissed you, and you didn't pull away." bruce spoke up. "ava.." vance mumbles out, eyes opening, tears falling "bruce i can explain!" vance says but is soon interrupted "no vance, no you can't" bruce clenches his fists and stands up "i can't keep doing this. i always see how lovely dovey you guys are. i've brought this up so many times. i can't keep doing this" bruce smiles as tears fall down "you always say 'oh she's just a friend! don't worry' but is she really just a friend" vance couldn't say anything. it was as if there was a knot in his throat stopping him from talking from explaining

"every time i forgive you, you manage to fuck it all up. i wanna keep being with you. i really want to. but liking you, liking you ruins me" vance started crying, more then he ever did before "every time i see you fuck it up again. i just wanna slam my head against a wall. slam my head until i pass out. i can't keep doing this. i can't keep forgiving you and letting you smash my heart over and over. i cant, i would say im sorry. but im not i can't be" bruce pauses for a moment, he lets out a sigh "i thought that maybe, you would care about my feelings. care about how felt. but you never did. did you once every try to stop her? stop her from holding your hand, cuddling you, kissing you?" bruce looks at vance. they both are crying. vance just stares at the floor not knowing how to respond "you really have nothing to say? wow hopper, fuck you" bruce tells him before leaving.

vance looks up watching bruce leave. he wants to stop him, he wants to explain, but he can't pull himself to do it. the person he cared for the most just walked out. and he did nothing about it. what is wrong with him.