Dazai's POV:
Today was a rollercoaster. I don't even know how to explain it. Our relationship just keeps getting more and more complicated. It's getting confusing. I don't know what to do about it. I don't know how I feel about it. I don't know what I feel.
What is it that I feel?
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I looked at Chuuya once more. Did he always have eyes this blue? This perfect hair? Was it always this fluffy, shiny, flowy? Draping softly around his face, softening his features while he smiles a smile I didn't realize that I missed. I feel my heart pump faster. Blood rushing through my body. I can feel myself lighting up. Like a fire but gently. Softly, slowly, sweetly. I can't take my eyes off him.
My laugh fades. I'm in my own world, mesmerized. I don't even realize it. It's a bit embarrassing, really.
"..Dazai? Hello?" I get ripped out of my thoughts by the sound of Chuuya's voice calling. He's waving his hands at me. Trying to get a reaction. I blink a few times extra than normal.
"Uh... what?" I chuckle awkwardly. Crap, did he say something? I didn't listen. Send me to hell.
He sighed and did a concerned closed eye smile while he put his hat back on. He pulled down on his hat shadowing his eyes.
"You're dumb." He grinned. His lips curving up, showing teeth. A little sharp. I've never noticed that. His lips were a rosy pink. Does he have lipstick on? I can't tell..
"Oh, come on- Hello!" He snapped his fingers at me.
"Crap, sorry. I spaced out again."
"Let's just get out of here. I don't want to stay in a grimy alley, do you?" He turned his back to me.
"Of course not."
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"So, where are we going?" I asked, tilting my head a bit.
"Where do you want to go?" He looked up at me with those ocean blue eyes. Long lashes. I held our eye-contact a few seconds too long.
"How about.. oh! I've got it! C'mon!" I grabbed his wrist and dragged him along. I could hear him yelling stuff like: 'I can run myself!'.
I ran with him in my hand. I just ran, I didn't care anymore. Fuck responsibilities, fuck work, fuck other people. I just want to run with a big smile plastered onto my face with the one person I can tolerate in my hand. I want to laugh, giggle, chuckle, smile, grin, be happy. And I finally have the opportunity.
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Heartless. (Soukoku)
FanfictionDazai and Chuuya were always arguing and fighting each other. But what about when one of them needs help? They say that they hate each other.. but is that really the truth? --------- Chuuya has been assigned to take care of an enemy. The Port Mafia...
