"Ghoulette of Lust" (DISCONTINUED)

Chapter 7 - Roadtrip!

We had been driving for about 30 minutes. I was sitting in the backseat relaxing. I was surrounded by the bags and suitcases of my belongings. I still managed to fit though.
I hadn't been talking to Omega, I actually found it pretty hard to talk to anyone.
I sat in the back for privacy. I didn't really want anyone seeing what I'm watching. It's not anything bad, it's actually just stupid vines, though I still hated people seeing what I like watching. Hell, I usually didn't even show my parents what I watched or listened to. The only one who I on rare occasions shared such things with was Ren...But Ren wasn't here. Not anymore. I'd probably  never get to hear him shout at me to wake up, hear him rant about his teachers or about some guy named 'Kyle' or 'Todd'. He could always text me or video call, but it wouldn't be the same.
We weren't super close, mainly just sibling love. The kind of love that mainly just includes yelling at each other. He still means so much to me though. So, so much.

I felt my eyes getting warmer and I realized that tears were going to come. I tilted my head up and started to fan with my hands at my eyes, no idea if it worked but it's worth a shot.
I somehow managed to make sure that I didn't start crying. I wasn't afraid of being called weak. I'd been called weak before but it honestly just didn't hurt me. It just felt as if someone was pointing out a personality trait of mine. I used to be a pretty sensitive person.  I'd cry over dumb reasons and I'd never stop the tears from falling back then.

No, the reason of stopping tears from falling is mainly out of habit. I'd usually wear mascara, so I developed a habit of stopping myself from crying as to not ruin it. So as I said, very stupid. 

Time flew by as I sat in the backseat. It had now been about an hour since we left my house. I had been listening to music since I got a bit tired and felt like relaxing. I'd been listening to Cirice two times and monstrance clock once. I was currently listening to Jigolo har Megiddo on loop, mainly because it's my favorite song.  I'd imagined myself preforming their songs so many times before, I just never really had that confidence. I mean, I can barely hold presentations I'd prepped several weeks for without basically fainting.

Wait...If i can barely do that then how would I ever be able to preform in front of hundreds of people?! Possibly even thousands?! Maybe being masked will help..? Or maybe the adrenaline would give me a kick of confidence? Would it just magically get rid of my stage fright? Let's hope so...

We had to stop for gas, we drove over to the nearest gas station. Omega drove up to on of the gas pumps. He slowed down and then I heard his slightly muffled voice.
"If you'd like to move your legs a bit then this is your chance before we leave again."
I decided to unbuckle my seatbelt and step out of the vehicle. I stretched a bit and took a few deep breaths. I didn't exactly know where I was. We definitely weren't in Stockholm, but all I could tell was that we were going north.

He finished pumping gas and told me to get back into the car. I went back in and buckled my seatbelt as the car started to move.

"Soo...Where are we going..?" I asked Omega after about five minutes of driving after stopping for gas.
"This really big forest in Norrbotten*. At least we don't live in Borås** or Göteborg***. Nobody likes those places."
"Oh okay...So we'll be driving for pretty long then?" I said, sounding unsure.
"Yeah, you could always get some rest and then wake up later? You must be tired after this whole day. I'll wake you up when it's time for dinner. We'll most likely just get some fast food then leave again, but food is food."
I only hummed in response, leaning back in my seat, preparing to fall asleep.
"Oh yeah, before I forget, here's a ghoul mask to hide your face with. We're working on one for ghoulettes specifically but humans are still not really supposed to see your face."
"Oh...Thank you."

He handed me a mask that looked to be made of like- steel or something. It didn't weigh a lot though and it had velcro straps on the back so i could tighten it.  I quickly put in on, then I laid back and started to doze off.

When I woke up it was like 6 o' clock. Omega had waken me up to ask what I wanted. We had driven to some pizza place. When he asked what I wanted I replied pretty simply.
"Anything without sausage."
I mean, I don't really like olives either, but they're acceptable on pizza. Sausage? Never acceptable. At least not hotdogs. I find them disgusting. The taste is like rubber flavored with no spices except for pepper and the sausage feels as if you're biting into a finger.

We got our food and then we kept driving. Omega took a bite of his food every now and then, but he was mainly focusing on the road. I was eating and thinking about stupid shit. I thought about me and my friends weird quotes and pickup lines. 'Are your eyes an IKEA? Cause I keep getting lost in them.' One friend, Anya had said once. Then my other friend, replied with 'are you a forest? Cause I want to take a walk in you.' I couldn't stop laughing as they just spewed pickup lines at each others. I thought for a while as I finally thought of something edgy enough. 'Are you marijuana? 'Cause I'm addicted to you.' I said.

I smiled as I remembered last winter. It was barely a year away, but it still felt so long ago. Or maybe it felt recent? Time is confusing, almost as confusing as Swedish grammar or pronouncing "sjuksköterska****" as a foreigner.

I took a bite of my mushroom pizza slice as I looked out at the window on the streets. There were a bunch of other cars on the road. I looked at their license plates. I came up with different things the letters and numbers could mean. It was surprisingly entertaining. Stupid, but fun. Almost like having snowball fights.

Wow, I really couldn't wait until winter. My favorite season of the year. I love celebrating christmas with my family! Perhaps I should say 'loved' though. I mean, I don't know if we'll ever spend another christmas together. Does a satanic church even celebrate christmas since it's a Christian holiday?

I wondered if the ghouls would be like my new family. It seems like all ghouls get along well on stage but hey, maybe they wouldn't be so inviting of a new member in their pack. Maybe I'd just be a waste of space, maybe they'd hate me. Hell, maybe they'll never even be accepting in the first place. Would I be the only girl? Would I be the youngest? HOW OLD WERE THE OTHERS? How old do ghouls even get?

Omega seemed to sense that I was uneasy because he soon said "Don't worry, I'm sure the other ghouls will adore you. They're a very friendly bunch, even the ones who seem as if they've never experienced happiness in their lives." He chuckled a bit. He was still looking at the road though. I giggled a bit at his comment as he kept speaking.
"Would you like some music? There's still about three hours left."
"Sure" I replied as he soon put on a playlist.

I was drained after the entire trip. Yes, all I'd done was sit in a car, but it was still so tiring. I felt my eyelids get heavy as I leaned back in my seat, calmly letting my body and mind relax.

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*Norrbotten, a province and country in northern Sweden.

**Borås, a city in Sweden. It's basically Swedens "Ohio" (related to the recent Ohio and Borås memes)

***Göteborg = Gothenburg

****Sjuksköterska is a Swedish word meaning nurse. It's known for being particularly hard to pronounce, especially for f n origners. It's sort of pronounced:
shj-uhe-k shj-uh-tehr-s-kah.