Tw self harm, PTSD,
Finney's POV
It's currently the middle of the night and everyone is sleeping, except me of course. I silently get up and walk to Vance's door.
Vance- where are you going?
I flinched I didn't think anyone way awake.
Finney- just to the bathroom why?
Vance- just making sure.
I walk out of his room and to the toilet, I do my business and wash my hands I look into the mirror and see my reflection. But then I see the grabber.
Grabber- hey Finney.
Finney- wtf.. You are not here I'm hallucinating...
Grabber- you killed me so I get to be with you for the rest of your life!!!
Grabber- isn't that fun!
Finney- no, NO YOU'RE NOT REAL.
I run out of the bathroom.
Billy- is everything okay we heard you scream?
I ignored him and ran. I ran out the door and ran to my favorite place, th park. I get there and sit on the bench furthest away from the entrance to make sure I don't see any of my friends.
I sit there in a comfortable silence.
'This is nice'
I thought. But them I hear my Griffin in the distance.Griffin- Finney?
I run up the giant tree that was in the park. Unfortunately I made a twig snap under me and heard people run towards the sound.
'What in the movie? '
I thought.Vance- we know you're here Finney
I wanted to come down but afraid they have some sort of mirror, usually Robin brings a mirror with a light attached so he can fix his hair and he lined it to his shirt so other people can fix their hair.
Finney- did anyone bring mirrors?
They all looked up to see me hanging on the branch above them.
(Like the picture above)
Robin- um only mine.
Finney- can you get rid of it?
Robin- uh- okay..
I see Robin unpin his mirror and out it in his pocket. I flip off the branch on to my feet.
Finney- sorry about that.
I said softly while rubbing the back of my neck.
Billy- sorry? Tell us what happened!?
I mumbled something incoherent and looked back up at them.
Finney- I uhm- saw the
I coughed.
Finney- G-grabber in the mirror and uh-m I said he was a hallucination and he s- said that he would be with me for the rest of my life..
I looked down ashamed that I overreacted over something stupid.
Finney- sorry, I know it was stupid to just run out without telling anyone but uhm-
I was but off when I felt pairs of arms hug me.
Bruce- I'm sorry you had to go though that.
Finney- uhm, all good... Can we go home now?
Vance- sure.
We arrived home and I went to the bathroom that had no mirror because Vance had smashed it. I can't believe I just did that I need to punish myself for being such a baby. I grab my r*zor out of the bag that I bring in to get changed. I did c*t myself on my arms, wrists, and belly. I thought it was enough so I hoped in the shower the cold shower. My c*ts stung but it felt good I got out and changed into long pants and a long shirt. By the time I got out it want the nest night because I was at the park for a solid 15 hours which I don't regret. I went out and Vance was waiting.
Vance- we have to clean your bandage.
Oh sh*t.
Finney- w-what?
Vance- come on.
Vance lead me to him room and sat me where I was the last time I got my wound cleaned. I was nervous.
Finney- d-do we have to?
Vance- yes or it will become infected.
Finney- I c-can just d-do it myself.
Vance- no. You won't do it right.
Finney- o-okay. But can everyone else leave?
Vance- okay?
Vance turned to everyone.
Vance- you heard the man leave.
They all nodded and left and closed the door. I got up and locked it and sat back down.
I took my shirt of and I could feel him staring at my scars and my fresh c*ts
Vance- oh Finney...
He quickly did my axe wound that was on my back then did my c*ts I winced and he just grabbed my hand and kissed it then continued.
Vance- anywhere else.
He had done my wrists and belly
I took of my pants and I heard him gasp. I did them significantly deep on my thighs but he carefully cleaned them and put bandages on, like he did with my belly and wrists.
Vance- did you want to wear my hoodie it might hurt to put your shirt on...
Finney- that would be nice...
I took the hoodie and out it on since I only had my boxers on. I didn't bother putting on pants with the hoodie being long enough to cover the bandages on my thighs. I unlocked the door and said that the other could come back in. They did.
Finney- I'm going to bed..
Vance- me too, you can sleep with me.
Before I could say anything he lifted me up and put me on his bed. How could he even lift me? I thought I thought I would be way to fat for anyone to pick up.
He pulled my head to his chest and he kissed my forehead. I snuggled closer and fell asleep.
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