Calm (GiyuuxReader)

Fifty-Three: Slowing Down

*Giyuu's POV*

I walked out the door. As much as I needed her to hear what I had to say. I walked out that door three days ago. Mitsuri told me (Y/N)'s home now and her sister is still there with her. 

What else was I to do when she told me she wanted me out? I have spent years trying to keep her safe. I have made mistakes, I admit to that, but I can't fall back into that pattern of back and forth with her. If she needs her time, I'll give it to her. 

I took another sip of my tea, thinking back to my meeting with Master. There wasn't much information to use from the journals, but we have a start. We have a name. 

"CAW! CAW!" My crow flew through the window, startling me. "HEAD NORTH, REPORTS OF DEMON! CAW!" 

I jumped up and put my now empty mug in the sink, grabbing my blade on the way out. At least a mission will help keep my mind off of her. 

*(Y/N)'s POV*

I watched as my sister finished packing her bag. She paused and looked up, "Are you sure you don't want me to stay? At least to help while you figure this out?" 

I met her gaze and shook my head, "You should be getting home now. It's safer there. We will have someone escort you to the shore."

She gave an understanding nod and zipped up her bag. It's not that I don't want my sister around. She just can't be here. It's not safe, especially with everything going on now. 

When I came home from Butterfly Mansion the journals were gone. I know that Giyuu must have them, but there's no going over there. I'll have to talk to Mitsuri and Obanai about that. 

"I'm ready," my sister grabbed my attention. I gave her a small, sad smile and began towards the door. 

When we got to the front door a Kakushi was already waiting for her. I gave her a hug, bid her farewell, and watched her walk out the door. She was finally heading home. Back to safety. At least somewhere safer than here. 

I stared out at the path outside of my estate, being overwhelmed with a feeling. I turned my head and saw a crow flying away from me, up north. 

Giyuu's crow. I hadn't seen him, but I knew he was there. As much as I want everyone to trust me and have faith in me, I can't help but think about him. I mean, I love him with everything I have, but what's a relationship without trust? 

I walked back into the house, needing a shower. I turn the water temperature up as high as I can without burning my skin off. I look down at the scar on my ankle that has grown since our mission. 

I won't fail. My blade is cutting the fabric in front of me faster than I have ever cut before. I have to make sure we all get out of here. Alive. I'm slicing my way to where I need to be, the line of finality in front of me. 

But something starts pulling me back. I look at myself and there's nothing there. What the hell? I keep trying to push through but I can't. I can't anymore.

I told you, you special girl. You will be mine. No! Get out of my fucking head! 

I keep moving forward, slowly, fighting against whatever is holding me back. I feel something slither around my ankle and look down. Crap. I try to move my blade but I can't. It pulls, quick and hard. I fall to the ground, my head banging against the ground. 

I gasp, trying to fight for air. What was that? Why had I remembered? Why couldn't I move? I lost control, but I couldn't move towards my target? 

I don't know what's going on with me anymore, something is so very off. I shake myself out of these thoughts and finish my shower. 

As soon as I'm dressed my stomach growls. Crap, guess I have to eat. I make my way to the kitchen and begin making some lunch. My thoughts again circling back to the Entertainment District. 

I see why they think they can't trust me. I mean we had two Hashira on that mission, one lost an arm, leading to his retirement, and one lost their mind, leading to this. 

I sigh, knowing what I have to do. I finish cooking my food, eating quickly. After my meal I run up to my room and grab my stationary items, writing out my letters. 

I send my crow out, another flying into my room shortly after. I reach for the letter.

 (Y/N),

I am heading to the Sword Smith Village, but Obanai will be around. I will visit once I am back. Take care of yourself. 

Love,

Mitsuri

I smile at my best friends words. Yet my heart aches at the thought that we lost Rengoku. He would've known what to do. He would've still trusted me. Had faith in me.

I put my stationary items away and lay in bed. Quickly drifting off to sleep. 

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Sorry it's been so long and it's so short! I have been finishing up my Master's and working full time! I miss you all! 

xx