"Take one more step and I won't hesitate to shoot you" I say, still aiming the gun at him
"Then shoot, I dare you" he says taking a step closer to me, the next thing I know he latching his lips onto mine. It takes me a second To realize what was go...
It's been two weeks being cooped up in Marco's room. We are back in Italy now and I haven't stepped out ever since. Maria brings me food but I mostly don't have the appetite to eat. Marco makes sure he feeds me before leaving and after he gets back, it's been a whole routine and I honestly don't know if it will change.
I'm all alone in the house everyday and for once in my life I am starting to feel lonely. It took me two weeks to realize what the empty feeling was in my body and now that I've realized what it is I'm more vulnerable than ever
I have lost the only thing I held on to while being in the mafia, my dignity. I let something like this happen to me and I will forever not be seen as a valuable asset.
Here I am laying in the same bed I've been on ever since we got here, it's almost time for Marco to get back and I need to shower but I can't even move.
The door peels open and I tear my gaze up to meet Marco's. He looks at me and studies my lifeless body then sighs.
"You can't keep going on with this Aria, this isn't going to be our everyday thing now" he takes off his suit and throws it on the couch
I sit up and stare at him, "going on with what ?" I ask purposely playing dumb.
"Don't do that, you know what am talking about. You have to try and get better, this isn't you" I snort at the statement
"Oh yea cause you know me so well" I cross my arms. "What does that even mean?" He sends a glare at me
"I don't want to talk anymore" I lay back down on the bed and cover myself with the blanket.
"That's your problem, you don't want to talk but that's how you get better-"
"There's no point!"
"What?"
"I've lost everything I stood for hell Marco I lost dignity, I can't look at anybody anymore without thinking about what they think of me
And you doing this for me reminds me of it! I see the way you look at me , with all that pity and it sickens me that anyone would ever look at me like that!" He drops his head and shakes it before looking up at me again
"You know I wish you can just wake up and realize that complaining about your problems won't do shit but me trying to help you will. But of course, it's always about you and I just forgot for a split second how selfish and arrogant you are, thank you so much for reminding me
If I were you, I'd stop laying around to constantly reminding myself of how pathetic I am but instead actually put in the work and get back to my normal self" he doesn't wait for me to reply as he leaves the room and slams the door shut.
I turn my head facing down on the pillow and scream into it. I need a drink, I need to forget about all of this. Marco is right and that's what's annoying about it.
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I walk inside the closet now that all my clothes are in there and I bring out a dress made out of gems and I wear my YSL heels. I slick my hair back into a ponytail and put on silver earrings
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