"Let the rain wash away, all the pain of yesterday"
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Rain.
It's funny isn't it?
I like rainy days, it reminds me that sometimes the world has sad days too.
But sometimes, the rain makes me feel like I'm drowning. Like my lungs are filling up with water? Rain water. Suffocating me from the inside. Searing my lungs like a brand.
I hoped the feeling would fade. Just as I hoped I would die last night.
And now, the rain always makes me feel down, like how I feel right now. I don't like it.
I don't want to be sad anymore, I don't want to feel this way anymore. Why can't it all just stop? Why isn't it going away? Why have I lost control?
Does life fade in a way? I hope for that.
If everyone knew. If everyone knew how messed up I was. If everyone knew how selfish I am.
Would they still want to be my friend?
Would they still think I'm a good person?
Not after seeing those tapes they won't.
Please don't let them see the tapes.
Currently, one of my arms is hosting an IV in my vein, giving me nutrients, giving me life.
A day begins.
A day that I hate begins.
I don't like it.
A/N
This hasn't been proof read, and is short, but not to worry, longer, better chapters are to come!
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