"over again" january 15, 2023
verse 1
have you ever felt like
you were drowning while still standing on the shore?
and all it smells like
is that sickening salty scent of your reflexive mourns?
pre-chorus 1
i don't know how i'm still here
only meant to stay a couple years
and now my biggest fears
are chasing after me
and i pretend that i've found
somewhere happiness abounds
that nobody sees around
i thought i'd be dead by now
chorus 1
but it's okay, i make the same mistakes
over and over and over again
now i'm wasted and i feel nameless
doing it over and over again
over and over and over and over again
verse 2
when you lost your balance,
was it easy to get back up?
or did you lie there on the ground waiting for it to end?
when your mind's malice
decided you were fucked,
did you give in?
pre-chorus 2
some things are better dead
some messages left unread
some thoughts left unsaid
some demons under the bed
i honestly don't know how
i'll ever find my way out
the thoughts are getting loud:
"you should be dead by now"
chorus 2
but it's okay, i make the same mistakes
over and over and over again
now i'm wasted and i feel nameless
doing it over and over again
over and over and over again
over and over and over again
over and over and over and over
and over and over and over again
bridge
like the thoughts entwined, the universe divine
i can't find my high anymore
the person maligned, perpetrator undefined
they won't try to unwind anymore
the beautifully designed, and the marvelous confined
no place to hide anymore
the blind leading the blind, all senses are deprived
no tears left to cry anymore
chorus 3
but it's okay, i make the same mistakes
over and over and over again
now i'm wasted and i feel nameless
doing it over and over again
but it's okay, i make the same mistakes
over and over and over again
now i'm wasted and i feel nameless
doing it over and over again
the perfect model turned out to be awful
but still i'll follow over and over again
church bells chiming, what perfect timing
while i'm dying over and over again
-lol depression
