"decoy" april 6, 2023
verse 1
she was my god
and she never knew.
i looked up to her
while she forced a bruise.
with her own fingers,
she twisted the knot in my stomach.
chorus
i'm signing off.
i'm not yours to destroy anymore.
i'm saying goodbye.
won't fall for your decoy anymore.
cause every part of me i hate
is just something that you created
in me and i'm sick of looking back.
what do you think of that?
verse 2
so many things
that i have to unlearn
because she taught me
things that burned
a hole in my self esteem,
and the nausea in my stomach.
chorus
i'm signing off.
i'm not yours to destroy anymore.
i'm saying goodbye.
won't fall for your decoy anymore.
cause every part of me i hate
is just something that you created
in me and i'm sick of looking back.
what do you think of that?
bridge
i don't know when it'll all go.
i'm trying hard to forget.
i'm breathing in your second hand smoke,
while putting out your cigarette.
i know you don't know what you did,
and that's what hurts the most.
you think you're so innocent.
while i'm haunted by the ghosts
of your past lives and your current one,
it looks like you never change,
but now i hope you know i'm done.
i found the keys out of my cage,
so this is goodbye from me.
i hope you get everything that you deserve,
because you made me feel so fucking lonely
with every one of your words.
chorus
i'm signing off.
i'm not yours to destroy anymore.
i'm saying goodbye.
won't fall for your decoy anymore.
cause every part of me i hate
is just something that you created
in me and i'm sick of looking back.
because the memories from years ago,
like yesterday, they don't get old.
i'm sick of always living in the past.
what do you think of that?
what do you think of that?
what do you think of that?
what do you think of that?
-ex friend/ex crush type shit
