"spiral" december 27, 2023 (TW ED, S/H, SUICIDE)
verse 1
haven't lost much weight
it's tough trying to realign
with what i wanted, i'll just vomit
where to draw the line?
when the line stings, pour a new drink
i've got issues, not a new thing
can't help the spiral
i guess that i'm out of time
prechorus 1
time slips by
will i die?
chorus 1
i'm trying, i promise
i got what you wanted
please take it, don't need it
i don't wanna feel it
trying hard, it's not enough
i feel like i'm out of touch
these days i don't get the rush
i don't get the rush
verse 2
i've been sober since october
guess i'm healing now
haven't tried it, it's ironic
it feels weirder now
kinda empty when it tempts me
i've got issues, i've got plenty
i can't help but spiral
what is this feeling now?
prechorus 2
thought i was fading out.
am i still fading now?
chorus 2
i hold fast my secrets
don't show it, can't seem it
i've fallen, but this time
i think it's my last climb
holding on to shreds of life
finding time to feel alive
these days is think i'll be alright
i'll be fine
-first half is depressing as hell, second half is almost uplifting
