Rains little secret

1- Busted-?

Authors note my first time writing in a public space so please be kind and let me know what you think I'm happy to accept kind criticism also I'm sorry for any errors I'm trying to do different pics but I've never done that so it may not be very good

Rains POV
Rain took a second to look at himself in the mirror not liking what he saw. It has been a long time since he was able to dress the way he prefered to for fear of judgment specifically from one person, P'Payu. Rain loved his boyfriend more than anything and he knew he would probably accept him but Rain couldn't seem to forget that he might not so he never had the courage to tell or show his boyfriend. The only person that knew rain liked to wear feminine clothing was Sky. Rain wasn't trans or anything he liked who he was he just like to have his nails and makeup done or to wear skirts and dresses and crop tops. It made him feel... Pretty. So knowing that P'payu had already left for work he went over to the closet and grabbed a box he had labeled "Rains School stuff" so no one would be suspicious of it and opened it. He grabbed a white pleated(skater) skirt that went down to his mid thighs a black sweater that was one or two sizes to big and a white collared under shirt

(This is his outfit without the bag and necklace)
He quickly changed out of the jeans and t-shirt he was previously wearing and ran over to the mirror jumping a little in excitement when he saw himself. Unfortunately in his excitement he missed the door opening.

Payus POV
I had already left for work so I could hurry home to my sweet boy but I forgot a blueprint in the bedroom so I had to turn around half way it was normally unlike me to forget things but I was trying not to wake Rain when I left this morning so it must have slipped my mind. Rain will surely use this the next time I tell him to be responsible but that's alright it's only fair. I made it back to our home in a decent amount of time. When I opened the door I could hear Rain running around upstairs so he must have woken up recently it was only 8:48 right now so it was quite early for the younger boy to be up but payu wasn't upset in fact he was happy he would have a chance to see his liver so he quickly made his way upstairs. When he made it upstairs he could hear Rain giggling and jumping a little and he couldn't help but wonder what had him so exited? Payu opened the door and froze.

Rains POV

I heard the door open and whipped around to see my boyfriend standing their frozen his jaw had fallen open and he had an unreadable expression but before I could try to understand it my vision blurred and I could feel tears pry at my eyes. I felt my knees give out as I hit the floor it should have hurt but I didn't feel it all I felt was the pain in my chest. What if he didn't love me anymore, or hated me because of this, what if he thinks I'm disgusting like....like they did. Rain was now full on sobbing and it was getting harder to breathe. It was like there was a hundred pound weight on his chest and he couldn't lift it no matter how hard he tried.

Payus POV

I stood there as I watched Rain snap away from the mirror twords me his face fell from the smile he had moments before to a look of absolute pain and dread. And I didn't know how to react not because of the way he was dressed but because he hadn't felt safe to tell me. If this made him happy why didn't he tell me. I love him and frankly he looked so beautiful with the smile on his face and a look that payu hadn't seen before a look that showed that Rain was truly happy with himself in that moment. As I was arguing with myself trying to figure out what I had done to make him feel like he couldn't tell me he collapsed to the floor and I wasn't fast enough to catch him he got the floor and went from small tears to heartbreaking sobs I wanted to help him but I didn't know how so I did the only thing I could think of. I held him pulling him into my chest tightly and rubbed his back softly whispering "it's okay sweet boy" or "it's okay good boy let it out" and he did he cried and cried in my arms

Rains POV
As I was sitting there crying I felt myself being pulled and before I knew it P'payu was holding me whispering sweet words and rubbing my back softly. Wait I thought he hated me now why was he being so nice I don't understand. It made me cry harder and I pulled him closer scared that If I let go, even for a second he would leave me. So I held on to him as a I cried. As he held me I let the smell of him wash over me. He always smelled floral and woodsy and it helped to calm me down a little bit was like the weight on my chest went from 100 to 95 pounds but it was still there because I knew that once I had composed myself we were gonna have to talk about this and I had to prepare myself for that, and for the possibility that he could and may...leave, and that hurt so much more than anything I could have imagined.

Alright y'all that's it for chapter 1 a new chapter will come out soon! Can't wait to hear what y'all think❤️