endgame // sebastian sallow

nineteen

NINETEEN
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I stood standing inside the Slytherin common room, watching the sea creatures outside the arch transparent window.

It must've been past midnight, but my darkened thoughts were eating me up and there was no way of possibly sleeping.

"Go back to bed, Ominis." I murmured, noticing the familiar red lit wand blinking behind me.

The wand stopped blinking and beside me stepped a familiar pale face, touching the cold window in front of us.

"Sebastian, it's 1 in the morning." Ominis pointed.

"I am aware." I kept my arms crossed.

There was silence between us. Only the sounds of creatures swinging around beneath the sea.

Ominis noticed the ambiance and let out a sigh, "It's her, isn't it."

Still, I stared out, knowing he could've possibly been speaking of Y/n.

I chuckled, shaking my head, "She's giving me a headache."

"Theoretically, Amortentia's side effects can last up to a month, so I don't think Y/n is giving you the headache." Ominis pointed out.

Ominis and his smart remarks weren't what I expected that very same night.

"Ominis, I am being serious." I sighed.

"You think I am not aware of that?" Ominis stood, "Y/n holding a grudge on you this long is not surprising. My best advice to you was to give it time."

"I just don't think I deserve to be held on a grudge, Ominis. You're wrong about that." I pointed out earlier words.

"How exactly? You didn't write to Y/n all summer and I might've heard a mention that she sent you an owl. Did she?" Ominis said in curiosity.

I held back at the memory of reading that first and last owl Y/n sent to me a few days after the alleged defeat of Ranrok.

If I can really recall the feeling of when I first saw her name inside that letter on June 9th, knowing she was alive I would, but I was truly a coward.

"I prefer not to speak about it. I have reasonings for it." I confessed.

"What reasonings are you holding that you can't even open up to me about, Sebastian? Did you really spent your summer just brooming and exploring outside of Feldcroft?"

No, I spent it with nightmares, trauma, depression, loneliness—growth. The list can go on with how I truly spent this saddening summer after fifth year.

"That's not the point." I murmured, "The point is...I can't bear the fact that she is no longer my friend."

Ominis stared ahead, letting a sigh, "Well, Sebastian, you made that choice yourself."

I just ignored his words.

"We spent hours together, Ominis. There were days where we just stood awake for 48 hours—drinking energy potions and killing non-stop." I explained.

"I know," Ominis chuckled, "I don't think anybody in this world, or galaxy really, can ever volunteer to take the role Y/n did with you."

I just looked down.

"Sometimes, I thought you used Imperio on her." Ominis confessed.

My brows furrowed, "You're joking."