Y/n & Tom Holland <spicy>

Part 43 <Explanation>

I was thinking and thinking, sometimes a few tears fell down of my cheeks, because at this point, i feel totally useless and sorry for myself. I met a guy, i didn't know anything about him and then? The third day we had sex. Was it? Yeah I think it was the third day. How could I think such a thing like he loves me. I don't even remember why did i want to do it. He just started touching me and i let him. Maybe it was a mistake.

For how long am i even sitting here? I'm looking at the view from the cliff this whole time, feeling the wind, listening to it, listening to birds and other sounds from the forest. I even saw a squirrel. I named him Jeff. When i wasn't moving because i was zooming out, he thought I'm part of the fallen tree I'm sitting on and he jumped next to me, but when I looked at him and said "hi", he realized and ran away. But i still gave him a name.

Anyway, it's getting really dark. The lights in the city are sure on right now. How long am i sitting here?

-I look at my watch.-

Y/n: .......... 6:15 PM. I'm sitting here for more than 2 hours.

I don't care about the time. I still don't want to go back. Damn but i have to!

I took a deep breath and looked at the view one last time. Then i stood up and started walking back. It will take some time. I was walking 2 hours until i found this cliff. That means I'll see the city around 8:00 PM. Not so bad. It's gonna be even darker so it should be harder to spot me.

I still haven't come up with any plan when I'll be at Tom's house. Where should I go after? Because I'm not staying there with him. He would lock me there like a pet and then if i would still be saying no, he would rape me. Because if i know something about him, he loves sex.

*Time skip*

Because i really really really didn't want to go back, i was walking really slow. So i reached the city at 8:30 PM. Come to think of it, i would love to know what Tom was doing this whole time and how was he feeling. I hope he was crying and feeling terrible.

Wow, how much did this change me? A lot. I would never say something like this before.

I'm walking on the street now. I'm not getting close to buildings because i don't want to be spot by a camera. The city is loud tonight. I keep walking by groups that are laughing so hard and smell after alcohol. Luckily, nobody came to me to say hi.

Oh good, i see a taxi.

I waved with my hand and it stopped in front of me. When i was about to open the car door, my senses made me look on the left. When i looked there, i realized..... I got spot.

Shit! I remember these guys! They ones took a video of me and Trevor on the lunch and sent it to Tom!

Oh God they're pointing phones at me! They're taking a picture!

I opened the car door, quickly got in and told him the address.
After 25 minutes we arrived, i paid and got out.

I'm standing on the street in front of Tom's house. Days ago, i was looking at it like it was my home... Now I'm looking at it like it's a jail in hell and on fire, with a Satan inside. The lights are on so he's home... Do i have a plan? No. Let's see how it goes.

I go to the door. It's unlocked. I opened it, walked in and closed behind me. It made a sound on the whole house. Suddenly i hear running from Tom's office and then.... He's standing at the opposite side of the room, looking at me with red eyes. Mine are red too so it's kinda funny.
I'm standing here, for some reason I'm not panicking, and I'm quiet.

Tom: Y/n!!

He has tears at his eyes as he runs towards me, but i take a few steps back and straight my hand in front of me as i sign for him to stop.