•It'll Be Okay• GENMUI

chapter 20

Gen pov

Muis sitting here.. practicly balling his eyes out..

I know.. I KNOW he doesn't want me looking at the cuts.. but.. I have to help him..

"Genya... can you please let go.." He said softly, I was holding his arm  looking at the cuts.

"I'm going to go get bandages mui, I'll be back." I tell him, letting go of his arm. "Genya it's okay.." He tells me, I shake my head. "Its not, we're gonna bandage you up and give you some food. And I want you to eat it" I say, walking out to go get some bandages and a sandwich.

I was in the kitchen getting the first aid kit, I looked behind me to see mui trying to sneak up to me. "I'm not hungry.." He tells me, I furrow my brows..

He doesn't eat. I know that for a fact..

"Mui, can you lift up your shirt..?" I ask him, he looks worried. "Then please have atleast some mango, it's not too much okay?" I say, he nods slightly.

I grab a mango from the fruit bowl and dice it up for him to eat. "How much do I have to eat.." He muffles. "All of it, it's not much okay, it's just a tiny bit of food." I tell him, passing him a bowl with a spoon.

"You can eat that right?" I ask, he nods slightly confidently which made me smile. He ate some, them another spoon and stopped.

"Come on.." I said, rubbing his back. He shook his head, "Fine, a little break. But I'm gonna bandage you up while you eat" I tell him, grabbing some bandages.

It's only a tiny but of food- why can't he eat it- does he not like mango maybe? He likes strawberries I know that-

"Do you not like mango?" I ask him, he shakes his head. "I do.. I'm just not.." He says before sighing,

I pick up the spoon and put it near his face, signaling for him to open his mouth and eat it. He shook his head, "mui, it's just a spoon of mango- you've been eating really badly if you can barely even eat this.." I say, opening his jaw and putting the mango in.

He clearly didn't like it, but he chewed it for a while, then swallowed. Only just barely, he opened his mouth to show me he'd eaten it. "Thank you, now you eat those. I'll bandage this up" I say, rolling up his sleeve and getting a bandage

I can't believe he's doing this...

He's so young- these scars are going to stay forever..

I take a deep breath and look at him, "if this doesn't stop. I'm not going to be happy." I tell him, he nods. "I-Ill try.." He says, "there's no try. You will, I better not find any new cuts, not a single one." I tell him, he just looks down at his arm while I get some bandages out of the kit.

I started bandaging him up, I couldn't tell how he felt.. his face expression was.. hard to explain.

I had wrapped up his arms, making eye contact with him. "Alldone, could I do your thighs?" I asked, he looked worried, "would you like to?" I asked again, he nodded. "I just.. it feels weird having anyone see them.." He said, I nod. "I understand why, but I want this sorted out okay mui?" I say, he looks away and I saw him slightly nod

I passed him the bandaids and he started putting them on his thighs, I looked at his hair.. it was still choppy..

I put my hand up to his head and ruffled his hair, he immediately paused from putting the bandages on and looked at me. I smiled at him, "short hair suits you" I tell him, he shakes his head. "I hate it so much.. I just want my long hair back.." He said, "you have a good face shape for it, I think it's just the choppiness you don't like" I tell him, "how about I fix it better? I won't cut it too short, I'll only even it up. I can easily fix it" I tell him, he clearly didn't like the thought of even cutting it..

He put his hand to the back of his head and moved it around, feeling his hair. "Uh.. I guess you could.. but if I tell you its too short for me while your cutting it you have to stop.. okay..?" He asked, I nodded eagerly.

I'm happy he's fine with me cutting it.. really happy actually..