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𝘁 𝘄 𝗲 𝗻 𝘁 𝘆

IM SORRY
"if i had a flower for everytime i thought of you, i could walk in my garden forever"

~lyla~

i'm leaving for london in a couple days. i'm so excited i've been skipping and jumping around my apartment all weekend while meredith and harper are constantly yelling at me to calm down.

i have had my bags packed since last week and i've got everything ready. i booked an airbnb for myself for at least two months and maybe longer if i want.

i'm scared to leave portugal as i've lived here my whole life, but i think i'm ready to get away and take some time for myself. i'm going to dinner tonight with everyone.

i don't know if joão is going to be there or not, but i'm trying to not let that effect me. i'm gonna have a good time with my friends for one of my last nights here no matter if he comes or not.

meredith and harper don't hang out with the guys a lot, so i'm hoping it won't be awkward or anything. i also haven't told them about the kiss yet, and im hoping i can leave tmrw without confrontation then i can just tell them over the phone cause that's way easier.

i think they have been suspecting something was up by the way nate literally beat the shit out of him. mason told me joão got in a couple good punches but overall he was fucked up. nate and joão are both fine now though, according to micah.

i put on a cute outfit and made my way out of my room to see meredith and harper staring at me. "your always making us late." meredith sighs swiping her keys up from the counter.

i just follow them outside and into the car. i connect my phone to the aux, because i have the best playlists, and harper rolls down all the windows.

the sky swirls with reds and oranges and it is incredibly beautiful. i stare out at the delicate white clouds stretched across the sky. the sun illuminates the sky creating great detail between the different shades of reds and yellows.

how are we so lucky to see something so elegant.

it's crazy to me how somewhere, on the other end of the earth, someone, so fragile and special, is gazing out at the same sunset, with so much admiration and hope laced in their eyes.

people take it for granted.

the sky, the earth, the animals, the beauty in everything. i wish people were able to see the world as i see it.

so gorgeous and dainty. everything is made for a reason and everything and everyone is extraordinary in its own special way.

the music blaring, my two best friends in the whole world terribly screaming the lyrics, the warm breeze blowing through my hair, the sun, the swirls of vibrant color occupying the sky, the hint of the moon just barely visible. everything perfect. and i wish this moment would never end.

but everything starts and ends for a reason.

we arrive at the restaurant, and it's really pretty. people are swarming around it and it is obviously very busy. meredith, harper, and i walk in and meredith talks to the guy at the front while i grab my lipgloss out of my purse and reapply the shimmery gloss onto my lips.