yeah... our friendship isn't over, and won't be for awhile.
i don't really know what to say, i was just hurting, from what? i have no fucking clue. jealousy? envy? loneliness? i don't know.
it hurts being stuck in the friend-zone, it really does... but... i think it'd be much more miserable being alone.
shit my actions in the previous post where no better then my actions of the past, i need to be better, i shouldn't be obsessing over a person, she's not my partner, she doesn't feel the same, i need to learn that.
it's weird, whenever i socialise i end up feeling more lonely than before i did, am i happier alone? or do i just like being by myself? but that doesn't make any sense, i strive for an active social life... i don't understand myself.
also the party was fun, i hope to go again someday and be invited to other events.
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The Diary of an obsessive idiot(diary 4)
Non-Fictionmy diary, read it or don't i really don't care
