thinking about ghosting the chick i like.
sooooo... yeah, gonna ghost her... maybe? idk. don't get me wrong i like her an incredible amount, however i was talking with her earlier and she's now on dating apps. it doesn't sound like i have a reason to ghost her but i know me, i know i might lose control and repeat what happened last time, i can't do that to someone (or myself) again.
i'm volatile, obsessive, clingy, weird and i know i don't have any friends outside of her, it's not like i'll gain any anytime soon, but i'd rather this end amicably. i can't really word how conflicted i feel, i have really strong feelings for her, but at the same time i don't want to go through that again, i don't want to be bitter and spiteful for another good part of a year and least we mention what i'd be putting her through if i where to lose control again.
do i ghost her? do i not? idk, i'll have to wait till my head chills the fuck out to decide.
what to do? what to do?
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The Diary of an obsessive idiot(diary 4)
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