The Diary of an obsessive idiot(diary 4)

ok, what now

so a few days back she messaged me back, yay right?

so she responded? what's next? do i message her just to be ghosted again? do i worry about her again and again with no effort to change it? our friendship lies entirely on her terms and i'm supposed to continue pursuing her?

i really don't know how i should proceed, bet i know how things'll play out. she's going to contact me god knows when but she will, and then i'm going to be nothing but devotion for the next few days all for this shit to repeat itself.

all that said i've got to be grateful she doesn't read this diary like the chick i had feelings for during my latter years of highschool, cause that'd be so bloody ass.