What is it paradise without Newt

Newt ?

My heart started pounding in my chest ten times harder than before, was he really here? No that's impossible, only someone like Wicked can manipulate the mind like this but we destroyed Wicked.
"Tommy you alright mate ?" His British accent was still strong and soothing but it scares me to death that he's here talking to me.
"Newt h-h-h-"
"Spit it out then shuck-face" he said through a chuckle
"Newt how are you here ?"
"Why?, aren't you glad to see me Tommy ?" He said with a hurt look on his face .
"What n-no of course I am but I don't understand I-I-I" I can't say I killed him again .
"Never mind that . " He started to walk towards me and I took in all in, every minute I spent with my best friend was special until suddenly I stepped forward and tripped on a trees root and hit my head on a rock . I felt my head throbbing and I heard Newt .
"Tommy , Tommy you alright?" But I was out .

I was woken up by Brenda shaking my shoulders shouting at her friends Mariana and Emily to get some help .
"My head is killing me right now" I regreated it as soon as I said it in a groggy voice .
"Thomas what are you doing out here?!!." I was possative by now that it was all a dream and that I hit my head falling out of the hammock but when I looked around I saw I was at the memorial. In the same place I was when I fell.
"No! No!! No!!! This is impossible !!!!" I shouted as I leapt up looking around at the words I engraved in the dirt , I saw a footprint. My heart stopped and I couldn't put into words how I felt . I was afraid my tears would be a bombardment again so I walked away from Brenda , Mariana and Emily and headed to the cliff.
"Thomas you need to wait until someone has had a look at your head before you go!" Brenda shouted after me but I ignored her . I needed to be alone .

Is this even possible, can he come back from the dead ?, have Wicked started again ? Or am I still dreaming ?. How is there a footprint where Newt was standing ? I don't get it .
It's mid-day and it took half of the day for Brenda to find me,I have not eaten since yesterday morning but luckily I'm not that hungry yet .
Here in this paradise the sun always shines and occasionally we have the odd thunderstorm but thanks to being in the Glade we have learnt skills in building shelter and we still have the keeper of the builders even if he does look messed up thanks to me . When we first got here we was trying to escape Janson and we did thanks to Eva Paige who told us where the other immunes were hidden and gave us permission to use the flat trans, without her we would never of survived with this many people to keep safe .

"Newt, if you can return now would be a good time" I need to see him again .
"Thomas "
"Newt thank-"
"What ?!!"
"Minho? What are you doing up here !!!"
"Slim it shank!!! I just came to see why you're not pulling you weight that's all!!!!. Why did you call me Newt ?"
Oh no I can't tell him he will think I'm mad .
"Erm I- I was just thinking about him that's all" I looked at Minho and I thought he was going to punch me again but thought otherwise and took a deep breath a spoke calmly.
"Me too. You don't have any idea how much I miss him ." He said trying to clear the lump that was clearly inplnted in his throat . I want to tell him that I saw him but I don't know what good it would do , the best thing that would happen if he found out was another bloody nose for me and I'm still recovering from the other one I got . But its worth a sho- try right ?
"Minho I have to tell you something " all his focus was on me and what I have to say now .