The Hacker And The Mafia

Chapter 10

Rose's pov

I woke up again with an iv attached to my arm and an oxygen tube in my nose. Suddenly everything was so exhausting, it was so difficult to even lift my arm. For what felt like hours i laid there staring at the white ceiling, before letting my gaze ran across the room until it stopped on a certain someone. David was sitting on the floor beside my bed, his head resting on the bed, from his relaxed posture and even breathing made it known he  was sound asleep.
I turned my attention to my right and my eyes popped out of its socket
Oh god. Which drug they gave me? I'm seeing things.

Jungkook was sitting there with his head leaning on the couch and eyes closed next to him was Elijah who was pretty much same like him. Confusion drawled upon me. What the hell are they doing here and where is Ruby-
Realisation sept through my veins as uneasiness filled me up. Bile rose when I remembered what happened

Attack.ruby.stabbed.blood.ruby.

Horror flashed my fash as I tried to sit up but my moments caused David to shot up from his seat starlted. His eyes met mine and relief swriled in his brown orbs. “Easy Easy” he helped me getting up. “Don't” he Said sternly when I was about to remove my oxygen tube.

"How are you feeling?" he asked his voice as warm as the sunlight, his gaze held such gentleness and concern it pinched something in my heart, i quickly looked away unable to meet his gaze as the guilt
within me made it  impossible to speak. why was he still here? why is he looking at me like i am the most precious thing? shouldn't he hate me for betraying them? or they don't know those guys were
here for me?. my eyes widened when a warm yet rough hand caressed my head so softly giving me a sense of fatherly comfort i've always yearned for, tears filled my eyes but i didn't dared to look
up. "Ruby is alright all thanks to you, you were so brave today.....i'm proud of you" he said those words slowly letting me process every word. every letter. something warm busted inside removing

every negative feeling and replacing it with nothing but softness.
i'm proud of you , never have i ever thought those four words can do so much inside me, i didn't know how much ive wanted someone to say those words. those four words felt like sun rays on my skin on a dark cold winter days, i clenched my fist letting nails dig into my skin letting me know i'm not in some kind of dream, that this is all true. But as soon as the warmt spread it quickly faded into nothingness and a bitter feeling itched. Proud? They didn't even noticed me sitting there on blood all over me. They left me there with blood like I was invisible.

I have no right to feel this way yet I can't help but look down, angry at myself with guilt swearling through my veins, it would've been better if i just died, everyone would be safe away from the monster that lurks in the dark seeking for a chance to claw their filthy hands on her and drag her back to the Abyss.

From the shuffling going in the background
i knew elijah and jungkook were up. "David" i said slowly "i'm okay, i'm just tired....can i sleep?"
i said without looking up, I want them gone, I don't wanna face them. I want to be alone like i deserve to. I want to be alone like i have always been all those years.

there was a moment of silence before david sighed

"sure, just call any of us
if you need something, yeah" he said softly pressing a kiss on my head before leaving the room with elijah, Jungkook stood there for a min, his gaze burning holes on the side of my face, without saying anything he left too leaving me there frozen with tears flowing down, at this point i didn't even know what i was crying for, for the guilt of ruby getting hurt because of me
or for the gentle act david showed me that i so desperately wanted.

Or for me, for my thirteen year old self that endured the hell all by herself.

Or feeling that bitter feeling of being left alone in blood, one that I have no right to feel.