I saw him

Conclusion

After that day, I never saw him again. 

Our meetings were coincidental from the train station to the store, but we were unlikely to communicate rather than meet. Surely, there could be one day I might see him again, maybe if I go to the next town again or even at university (which will never happen). Either way, we both have our own lives and he might even be taken by someone who deserves him better than I ever would. 

It was fun reminiscing about him and imagining all sorts of non-existent scenarios where we would meet as if we were novel characters. Unfortunately, this is reality and it would be foolishly impossible for us to even know each other in the first place. 

Somewhat, I'm glad we don't know each other. Currently, I'm having a few issues with my identity so it would have been a disaster crushing on him and then eventually face rejection as I do with every crush I have. 

You may be wondering, do I regret not interacting with him, or even not trying to be friends with him? Yes. However, I realised that I was being superficial so if we were to be friends, our friendship would only amount to looks and nothing else. Besides, I knew I would leave college without a lover, even if I had a lover, I still wouldn't be in a relationship with anyone. 

But as Yuka and Lizzy tell me, I'll find someone better one day. It may take a while, maybe 10-20 years to find my other half, or maybe I will never had an other half in the first place. Even so, I want to take care of myself before I care about anyone else 

(and continue simping for Childe and maybe that new character who will appear in the Fontaine update in Genshin-) 

Also, I know I'm gonna be single for life cause I have the ability to scare people away with my legal knowledge and carelessness for words so yeah, I'd be quite lucky if I end up with a guy who has the ability to put up with me (but I'm never going to show this novel to him ever! >:D).  

If I still don't find my other half after 20 years, at least I still have Childe and maybe Wriothesley! (as my friend Soy would say).

The end

and here's some childe and wriothesley pics to brighten your day after reading this sad piece of work:

This is Wriothesley.

This is Childe.

(credits go to the original owners)

Now I've gotta decide on who to commit to as a simp- 

;-;