Wildest Dreams ~~~ H.S

37.

I chuckle and put down my phone after I check the time. It's 9pm. I know that isn't very late, and I didn't eat dinner, but I'm exhausted and not that hungry. I'm normally not that hungry when it gets late. I change into my favorite pajamas. Well, not exactly pajamas, but my comfortable white sweatpants and black baby tee. What can I say? It looks cute and it is still very cozy.

I brush my teeth and remove my mascara and eyeliner before I crawl into bed. My eyes become heavy, but I jolt when I hear my phone vibrate against the nightstand next to me. I rub my eyes and sit up to see that it's Harry.

I answer the FaceTime and see his face close up to the camera. "Hey Rae! Did I wake you?" He backs away from the camera and is still smiling.

"Mmmm.. no. But do you need anything?" I slump back into my old position and hold the phone in front of me.

"Uh.. does saying hi to you not count?"

"Well I guess it does, but I'm tired. I was about to fall asleep." My eyes are extremely heavy and I feel like I don't have the ability to keep them open. 

"Aw, you tired, sweetheart?" He asks, as I roll my eyes with the last ounce of energy I have and he laughs under his breath.

"Mhmm," I smash my face into my pillow and groan. I really want to talk to Harry right now, but I'm so tired. At this point, I can just feel his cheeky grin through the screen without even looking. "What are you smiling about?" 

"I'm not smiling, I don't know what you're t-talking about." He fails his plan of being serious, and it's obvious to tell that he's lying.

"Mhm. Right," I hear him shuffle around and I open my eyes to look at him. He takes off his shirt to change into pajamas. "Harry! Why are you changing in front of the camera?" I scream at him, and he jumps.

"I-I didn't think you were looking!" He holds his shirt up against his chest.

"It's fine. I won't look. But you should seriously turn off your camera even if I'm not looking."

He shrugs on turns off his camera while he changes. When he turns it back on, he is walking through his hotel room to get to the bathroom. He grabs his toothbrush and squirts a big glob of toothpaste on top. 

He begins to brush his teeth, and I can't stop thinking about all of the photos there are of him doing the same exact thing. A smile pulls on the corners of my mouth and I try to stop it.

"Why are you smiling like that?" Harry asks, struggling to speak with his mouth full. I burst into laughter when his toothpaste trails down his chin. He yelps and tries to lean over the sink before it gets onto his black t-shirt.

I rest my phone on the extra pillow that I'm not using. I'm so tired right now, and I need to hang up, but I know Harry will get mad if I do. I grumble as I pull the sheets up to my waist and watch him finish getting ready. He hums softly, making me feel at ease.

I hear a small murmur, thinking it's just a dream. "Goodnight."

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I hear muffled noises as I shuffle in my bed. I bring my hand to my pillow and rest it there. A small grunt leaves my mouth when I hear a soft laugh coming from nearby. Wait, who's in my hotel room? I quickly sit up and look around my room. Nobody is there until I look right to my left. My phone is lit up, showing Harry. He notices that I'm looking at him and quickly pretends to sleep.

I roll my eyes at him, and see a small smirk forming across his lips. "Harry, stop faking, I know you're awake." A breathy giggle exits his mouth, but he doesn't open his eyes. 

"Ugh fine, I'm just going to hang up," I look at the time that is printed on the corner of my screen. "It's 11:42 anyway." Just as I lift up my phone to end the call, he quickly sits up.

"No! I'm awake! I wasn't faking, I don't know what you're talking about. You definitely just woke me up a second ago." He has a worried, and guilty expression plastered on his face.

"Harry, if you just woke you up, you wouldn't have known that I said you're faking." 

"Oops." He grins while he pulls his covers over his head.

"But why didn't you hang up?" I ask. I mean, he had no reason to stay on the FaceTime.

"If you don't hang up, I won't hang up either!" He pouts. During times like this, I doubt the fact that he is a grown man. How does he act so childish? And how does he make it look good? This man scares me if I'm being honest.

"Okay, well I am actually going to hang up now. My phone is at like 5% and we have filming tomorrow. Goodnight, Harry." I see his smile fade into a frown.

"Goodnight Rae, lo-" I hang up immediately, not expecting him to say anything else. Oh shoot! He was in mid-sentence and I completely just cut him off. I try to call him back, but I get no response. 

I shrug and smash my face into my pillow. I can't believe any of that just happened! I don't even know how I managed to fall asleep in front of Harry. Not the mention the fact that it is so embarrassing! Why did he have to stay on the call? What if I looked stupid or something? God, I don't even want to think about it. I already know that this is going to be one of those 'moments' that I will be reminded of out of the blue in like 5 months and regret every single life decision I have ever made. 

I kick the sheets in embarrassment and lay on my side. My room feels so empty now that I have nobody to talk to or hear breathing in the middle of the night. At least I knew Harry was there when I was on the call with him. 

I just wish Michael was here to hold me in his arms and just ask me how my day was or even reminding me that I have a purpose. I really miss those nights. It would be 3am, and we would just cuddle and always do some late night talking. 

I really want him to be here with me. Michael has always been there for me, but now he hasn't as much. I can't wait to go visit him soon. 

Author's note:

hey luvs! its been a while, i know 😭 (dont kill me) but im glad that i got some time to relax, even though it was only for a few days. but thank you so much for sticking with me! and just to let you guys know so you wont be asking me about it when it DOES happen, but i have really thought about it, and i really think it's something i really need to do to improve this story. (PLEASE dont murder me 💀 but you do have the right to get extremely mad at me cause like iykyk its pretty bad) anyway yeah im going to cut down the amount of handrea for the next few chapters. and yes, i KNOW that you guys love it, but trust me on this, it needs to be done 🤝 i need to focus on the plot more right now and minimize it for now. but DONT worry 😏 because you will get a LOT more of it after. anywhoooo, see you soon luvs ❤️