Ijaya | ✔️

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'Yours'

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Fear

Ewan's eyes open wide and glossy, his chest moving up and down heavily with sweat trickling down his forehead. I smile at the sight "your going to regret the day you were born" i say

Fear is one of the most basic human emotions. It is programmed into the nervous system and works like an instinct. From the time we're infants, we are equipped with the survival instincts necessary to respond with fear when we sense danger or feel unsafe. Fear helps protect us. But its also made to betray us, it shows how scared we truly are.

He watches as i drag the blade down his chest, pricking at his skin here and there leaving more cuts

I like physical torture, being able to see what I've done- cuts, scars and bruises -but i also love the physiological side of it. Your own mind betraying you until your body feels so alien to you that you want to hurt yourself

I get up walking to one of the men "take him to a place he can't hurt himself, where he has to put up with his own life." He nods

I walk out smiling at my mum, shocked to see my dad here "hey little cherub, have fun?" He asks and i nod "yeah, just need to get him to an asylum" my father chuckles before nodding

"I need to get back, bye" i leave and drive back to my house

I walk in to see Niko and Dario play fighting "Niko, you feeling better?" He nods, running over to me and kissing me softly

-Three months later-

"Where are we?" I giggle as he covers my eyes with his hands, he finally uncovers my eyes and i gasp when i see the city- while standing on a hill

"Your not going to push me are you?" I humorously ask and he shakes his head "why would i do that?" I shrug

"How are you? Do you feel okay?" I ask him questions, taking his hand in mine. He laughs nodding "I'm fine, no need to ask me again princess" i look down at his hand and kiss his knuckles

"Why are we here?" I whisper, he looks at me with soft eyes "no reason baby, I remember you telling me that you love this place"

I smile kissing his lips

I pull back looking at him in confusion when i see him getting emotional.

"I love you so much princess, i love everything about you, your skin, your eyes, your lips, the way you make me nervous" he softly says "I'll admit, I'm whipped because of you, i was since the day you slapped me" he chuckles

"W-what?" I stutter over my words, confused to where he's going with this. I need to let him finish

"Rio told me time and time again that i loved you and he was right, i just didn't accept it because i didn't think i was good enough for you, i still don't" tears threat to sting my eyes but they only widen as i see him going down on one knee

"I've been in your past, I'm in your present so will you let me be in your future?" He blows out a breath, reaching in his pocket.

He's not going to- is he?

He pulls out a red velvet ring box, i gasp when he opens it revealing the most beautiful diamond ever. My vision blurs as my eyes flood with tears "that ring... I've only ever told my parents about it" my voice cracks a little when i speak

"I asked them for permission" he chuckles nervously "i went through threats by your dad" i laugh lightly with a tear strolling down my cheek. He quickly looks away blinking rapidly "fuck, princess, your going to make me cry"

I laugh softly before wiping away the tears before they begin to get worse, then he says the words that I've always fantasised about "Ijaya Grace De Luca, will you marry me?"

My heart was about to break out of my fucking chest, i crouch down with him, kissing his lips "Yes baby, yes i will marry you" i smile until my cheeks hurt

"It's me and you forever" I whisper, he slips the ring on my finger and i bite my lips

"Whipped huh?" I arch a brow and he groans, hiding his face in my neck "you know it, I'm yours"

This was in fact real and i was awake

More awake than I've ever been before

With him

My fiancé

:)
Thoughts?
Predictions?
I almost cried writing this and I don't know why
And sorry for the time skips