"Don't hate me more than i hate myself", Vegaspete Fan fiction

CHAPTER 1

Hands getting cold
Losing feeling is getting old
Was i made from a broken Mold?
Hurt, i can't shake
We've made every mistake
Only you know the way that i break

Vegas watches as Pete fills his bags, a lump forming in his throat as he realises what is going on. he had been expecting this, had known that the inevitable was only moments away, but that didn't make it any easier.

Pete pauses for a moment and looks at Vegas, his expression unreadable.
Then he turns away and continues packing his bags.

Vegas's heart sinks lower and lower, and he feels an overwhelming wave of sadness. he had been with Pete for so long. he had thought that their relationship was strong, but now it was unraveling right in front of him.

He felt the all-too-familiar feeling of insecurity start to creep up on him, like it had too many times before. He knew that he was unworthy of being loved and that's why it seemed like no matter how many times he tried to make things work, it never did.

But this time he had been so hopeful, because things had seemed so different.

He still remember when :

(Pete is reading a book he found in Vegas' room)

Pete: It also says that the personality can be told by the pet too. A hedgehog. A hedgehog. A hedgehog. (Pete searches for the right page...) Ah. Hedgehog. The owner looks strong on the outside, scary, but actually is sensitive on the inside.

Vegas: Who's weak?

Pete: Sensitive. It says that you're sensitive. You need love.

Vegas: Freaking leave it alone. (kicks the book out of Pete's hands)

Vegas thought he was an evil monster, responsible for the suffering of others. He vowed to never let anyone get close to him, believing that he didn't deserve love. No matter how hard he tried, he was rejected and alone.

But then pete came in his life as a sunshine ball he was. Pete made vegas belive he isn't a monster, pete gave him the love he always carved for.

But, Now his pete is leaving him. His pet got tired of food from that same mind sick owner. Vegas thought as he laugh bitterly remembering those moments

Vegas: Why did you follow me, Pete? I've got nothing left. (Pete hugs him) Let me go!

Pete: No.

Vegas: Why did you follow me, Pete? (shakes him off) I've got nothing left.

Pete: Would you stop saying you've got nothing left? I'm right here. And don't turn your back on me like this. Because... Because I'm hungry.

Vegas: Are you very hungry? Can't someone else take you to eat?

Pete: You dare pushing me away? You dare pushing me away, Vegas? Then why the heck did you tell me you wanted to be with me!? I'm your pet, aren't I? And I'm hungry now. And you walked out. So I had to come find my owner.

He doesn't need his owner Anymore. Because pete isn't his pet, he is a fucking human and Vegas? he is... he is just a monster who just deserve hate. He knew pete gonna leave him,the day he realise how fucked up vegas is, he gonna run away and never come back

but....

He had felt so loved and so wanted. He had believed with all of his soul that Pete was his one true love and it seemed like there was something real between them. But now, it was all coming to an end.

Pete and Vegas had been together for ten blissful months. It was a whirlwind of love and passion, both feeling they had found their soulmate.

When Vegas was in hospital, pete was there for him. Pete was with him when he had nightmare of his father, pete was there when he relapsed , pete was there when he was insecure and thought he didn't deserve pete. Pete was everytime with Vegas when vegas needed him.

Vegas never realised how much he started depending on pete, though everytime they kiss his inner self screamed that it's wrong and he didn't deserve pete.

Vegas know he was only good in sex, so he makes sure to always make pete feel good. So, that there at least be one reason that pete decide to stay with him

But then one fateful night, after their usual date night at the movies, Pete dropped a bombshell on Vegas. He was hesitant first, vegas could sense that,

Pete : "vegas, there is something i want to tell you",

Vegas sensed pete tense body and nervousness in this tone. He wasn't having good feeling about whatever pete was gonna say, so he mentally prepared himself as he kissed pete forehead and squeezed his hand as a assurance

Pete: i think we need a break. Don't get me wrong vegas, i love you okay. But i think i need a break from everything and my grandma health isn't also well, so i will be staying some time with her. Please respect my decision vegas

Vegas was devastated. He didn't understand why Pete had made that decision so suddenly. He didn't want to lose him, but he wasn't sure if there was anything he could do. Vegas know he can never say no to pete, so putting stone on his broken heart he asked in a small voice fearing if it get any loud, he will break down

Vegas: what about Venice?

Pete: i have been observing your relationship with him Vegas, he is already 12 years old. I know you are insecure that you can't be good father, you don't wanna be like Gun but trust me Vegas, Venice needs you as much as he needs me. So i want you to spend time with him

Pete looked at Vegas with hopeful and sad eyes and who was vegas to ignore Pete words. Maybe this break is a excuse to leave him forever and never come back

"i will miss you Pete", he whispered as a lonely tear escaped vegas eyes...

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I intentionally made Venice 10 years old, Hope you all don't mind -