Lewd (Church Siblings Series Extended)

12

Ilang beses na akong napabuntong hininga habang nakatanaw sa madilim na kawalan mula sa balcony ng bahay namin sa Constanta. Wala akong naririnig maliban sa paghampas ng alon mula sa dalampasigan na nasa harap lang ng bahay. Nakatukod ako sa railing habang iniisip ang mga nalaman ngayong araw.

I tried telling Pam while we fly to here, but I just can't. Pakiramdam ko bigla siyang maglalaho at hindi ko na mahahawakan kahit kailan.

Naramdaman ko ang paglabas ni Pam pero hindi ko siya nilingon. Dinama ko lang ang paglapit niya at paghaplos sa hubad na likuran ko bago siya napunta sa gilid ko at sumandal sa railing ng patalikod.

"Can't sleep? May problema ba?" malumanay niyang tanong, hinahaplos ang hubad kong balikat at braso.

Minata ko siya mula ulo hanggang paa. She's oozing with hotness while only wearing nothing but my white buttons down shirt that lays above her flawless knees. We had a steamy night, but it didn't tire me enough to sleep.

"Magpahinga ka na. Napagod ka kay Fourth tapos pinagod din kita."

"Nakatulog na ako. Nagising lang kasi naramdaman ko na wala ka na sa higaan." 

Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay at nginisian, napanguso naman siya habang lumulubo ang pisngi.

"You can't sleep without me on the bed? Bago 'yan, ah."

"I thought that you were texting with your mistress or something. Gusto kitang hulihin sana."

I don't have a mistress—other woman. There's no number two. But I feel guilty. Pakiramdam ko tinraidor ko siya kahit na ang panganay ko ay mas naunang pinanganak kesa makilala ko siya.

"I love you..." is all I can say. I can't even say sorry because why?

Anong naging kasalanan ko, samantalang ngayon ko lang din nalaman ang tungkol sa isa ko pang anak.

I pull her on the waist as I lean down to give her gentle kisses on the lips. Inangat ko siya hanggang sa kumapit siya sa leeg ko habang ang mga binti ay nakapulupot sa katawan ko. I guide us to the room, still not breaking our sweet kisses.

Puno ng ingat ko siyang nilapag sa kama tsaka na rin ako humiga sa tabi niya. She disappointedly stare at me. I know she wants another round but I can't give it to her right now. I can't make love with her while I'm thinking of many things— while there's another woman's image in my head, not just any woman but the mother of my other child.

"Apollo, may problema ba? You're keeping something from me."

I refrain from sighing. I thought she doesn't know me at all but it seems like she can sense trouble when I have any kept from her.

Dinantay ko ang braso sa kanya tsaka ako sumiksik sa leeg niya. "I was thinking of us. I'm scared you might end up leaving me again."

She lay on her side and hug me back. "What will I gonna do to prove you that it won't happen again? That I'm different from what I am before?"

Easy answer. Marry me again. But no. I'm not ready. And it's not the best option while I have another problem needed to attend.

"Let's announce our relationship after sa premier ng gagawin nating movie..."

I was taken a back with her suggestion.

"Alam ko na baka iniisip mo na promotional lang na gawin 'yon pero hindi. I want everyone to know about our little family, Apollo. You, me and Fourth. And we can also have another child. Handa na akong magbuntis ulit."