Lewd (Church Siblings Series Extended)

17

I am scared of telling Pam about what happened— about how devastated Fourth while on my watch. I feel like it will drift us apart more.

But I can't lie anymore. It won't cause any good.

Tinawagan ko si Pam para ipaalam ang nangyayari. Wala pang isang oras ay dumating siya kasama ni Xavi. Nasa parehong sulok pa rin si Fourth, hindi na umiiyak pero ayaw pa ring magpahawak.

Pinapasok ko ang lahat sa loob, kahit si Xavi ay pinatuloy muna nina mommy. Ako, kasama si Pam ang tanging natira kasama ni Fourth. Walang pag-aatubiling umupo sa maduming lapag si Pam katabi ng anak namin. Sumandal din siya sa bakal na gate at pumikit gaya ng anak namin. 

My treasures is right in front of me, but I couldn't get a hold of them. They look like each other, no one will ever doubt them as mother and child. Itatanong pa nga kung sino ang ama, pero mukhang hindi na nila hahayaan na sabihing ako iyon.

"Take a deep breath..." Pam started singing. Fourth opens his eyes looking at his mother adoringly. "Put your hands on your tummy, feel your belly rise and fall..."

She opens her eyes and meet Fourth's gaze, she smile lovingly to our son before she put her hands above his stomach and rub it for him.

"In to your nose, out to your mouth," she continue singing, also showing to our son the breathing exercise. "It's not hard at all.."

Hindi nawawala ang ngiti niya habang kinakalma si Fourth gamit ang kanta. I am seeing a different Pamela— a mother I never seen in her before. A mother that can give everything— that can sacrifice, hurt and kill for her son.

"Are you calm now, honey?"

Nangilid na naman ang luha ni Fourth na kaagad pinunasan ng nanay niya. "M—momma I b—broke m—my i—iPad. S—sorry..." Napasinghot siya, tinuro ang iPad na basag.

"It's okay, Fourth. Momma understand that you were upset...." May ngiti niyang sinuklay ang buhok ng anak namin. "Pero huwag na uulit, ha? Momma can buy you a new one pero bad pa rin magsira ng gamit."

"Sorry, Momma..." Fourth struggle to stood up but he did. Niyakap niya ang nanay niya ng mahigpit. "I know you work hard to buy me that. Sorry. Huwag mo na ako bilhan ng toys, huwag na tayo pumunta sa disney world."

Pam chuckled. "Momma already bought tickets to disney world. Paano 'yon? Ibabalik ko nalang?"

"You did?" Hindi makapaniwalang tanong ni Fourth. Lumiwanag ang kaninang malungkot niyang mga mata.

I already brought him there with his cousins but I guess he couldn't appreciate it before since he was too young. Now he's a big boy. Few more years and he'll be able to win a fist fight with me.

"Yes, we will go there with Uncle Xavi. Tatapusin lang namin ang trabaho, okay?"

They are starting... without me. Away from me.

Muntik akong matumba ng balingan ako ni Pam. I couldn't read if she's disappointed or mad. "Pwede ba tayong mag-usap?"

"O—okay. Saan mo gusto?"

Tumayo siya at hinila rin si Fourth patayo. Magkahawak kamay sila na parang kaya nilang labanan lahat sa mundo.

"Kasama ang pamilya mo, Apollo. I want to talk to all of you especially to your parents and sister."

May pagtutol kay Fourth na maihiwalay muna siya saglit kay Pam, wala siyang tiwala sa mga taong pinagkakatiwalaan niya noon na hindi nila sasaktan ang nanay niya. Matinding pakukumbinsi pa ang ginawa sa kanya ni Pam, hindi ako nakisali kasi pakiramdam ko ay kahit sa akin wala na siyang tiwala.