I sit down at my seat with xander and I feel his hand on my thigh as I doodle in my book because I can't be bothered to listen to my stupid as teacher Xander grabs my thigh and lays his head on my shoulder He fell asleep. I look at him not knowing what to do after the bell rings I shake him gently "Love wake up" I say "No" he grabs me right and makes me go on his lap "We're in class wake up." "Oh I thought were in your bedroom because it's so silent" I giggle "Alright let's go." I say pulling him to the cafeteria We sit down on the bench me in the middle of xander and lizzie and I feel xanders hand on my thigh but it's not as cold as always I look at him he's just eating normally , for the first time He looks so peaceful laughing , giggling, smiling It almost hurts me knowing that he looks more peaceful when he's with his friends and not me. I become silent for some time overthinking if he even likes me or not or if he's just using me for my body. "Jess?" He whispers to me I look at him but break eye contact "Are you okay?" He says sounding genuinely worried about me "Yeah" I say Lizzie starts hugging my arm because she knows what's going on and she's trying to comfort me so I don't break down into tears Xander takes his hand off my thigh. I feel my heart break but I feel like I'm being too sensitive so I just ignore the thoughts The bell rings I haven't ate a thing. Lizzie looks genuinely worried about me and Keeps on looking at me untill she finally comes up to me "Why weren't you eating?" "Wasn't hungry" I say Not making eye contact She grabs me and makes me look at her "Jess I'm really proud of you for getting a boyfriend but if he's really treating you that way dump his ass and honestly you shouldn't be starving yourself whilst overthinking."she snaps at me. "No it's just me overreacting because I'm the pussy in this story." I say
"Stop making excuses Jessica, I can see you overthinking and don't even thing about hurting yourself again." And she grabs me even tighter when she mentioned the self harm , I self harmed before , ALOT actually last time was 3 months ago but it just feels good.i look at her nodding and I can see pain in her eyes Whilst I do.
Time to go home.
I walk without xander to my house still thinking if he loves someone else and not me. I haven't done this in a while but.. I pull out my weed pen and start inhaling and blowing the smoke out making tiny Os Which feels really good because it gets me so high all my pain goes away immediately and I hear a knock on my window I look over and see xander I take another hit of my pen coughing alot because I inhaled too much of it I open the window and let xander climb in He grabs the pen from me "What are you doing?" He says frowning "What do you mean?" I say giggling even though everything is spinning around me and I feel like collapsing
"Jessica actually what are you doing?" "Is this a vape or a weed pen?" I just giggle and he looks at it °weed pen° "Huh." He scoffs "are you that dumb to fucking smoke weed?" I just carry on laughing grabbing him by his waist and he carry on looking at me all wierd and frowning He throws the weed pen and I go after it like a dog after a stick And inhale it giggling and laying down I bite my lip I've never felt this great before. Xander grabs me and places me on the bed taking it away from me again and hides it somewhere , I can't remember where though. "Go to sleep Jess." He demands "No" I say all giggly and funky "Jessica ghase. Sleep , now." He says demanding me I lay on my bed with my eyes closed I feel xander taking my clothes off me and changing me but he doesn't get the top off so he just leaves me in my bra and he puts on my shorts and I can't remember anything more Because i just fell sleep immediately because of how high I was. I wake up and try finding my vape because I know I stopped doing it for a while but i wanted it again so .. I finally find it and take a puff but it doesn't hit Out of battery. Fuck. I get my other one and take a hit it's not as good but still can do the job , this one works because I rarely use it. Xander notices me and grabs it from my hands and takes a hit "mm..blueberry?" I nod and smile "give that back snatch it taking another puff xander looks at me whilst I stand up and standing up after me putting his hands on my waist kissing my neck gently and nibbling on it I giggle carrying on puffing on my vape I put my hands on his hand start moving from side to side as I brush my teeth. I finally go out of my bathroom and into my room "Xander I need to dress up let go" "No" he says holding me more firmly I pick out my clothes and dress up and put my hair into a clawclip "You're so pretty darling" he says holding my hips "Party?" I nod with a smile and I open my door and go down my stairs opening the front door and getting into his car I put on my seatbelt And look out the window We get to our destination and I immediately go off with lizzie and my other friends.
XANDERS POV; she goes off with her friends and lizzie And I go off with Alex and my my friends, "So , that girl you've been hanging out with , you got something going on?" James asks (my friend) "Not really , she just wants to be friends" "Sure.." He scoffs and rolls his eyes at me because it's so obvious. A girl comes up to me she's so gorgeous it hurts she has red hair with brown eyes
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She sits next to me and her beauty makes my get horny so I put my hand on her thought squeezing it "Room?" She asks "Yes please." I say I find a free bedroom and I sit down on the bed She sits done on my lap and starts kissing my neck I groan she's better than Jessica. She puts her hand down my jeans and starts to unbutton my jeans giving me head I groan grabbing her hair pushing her head more towards my dick "You got condoms?" She asks "Yeah .. in my wallet." I stutter She takes one one placing it onto my dick Whilst I take off her pants rubbing her ..... She slightly moans and let's out a high pitched breath and I put my dick inside her She moans loud and she grabs my hair whilst i pound her "XANDER" SHE screams whilst moaning She digs her nails into my back and I bite her neck passionately then kiss her whilst I got faster I can feel her heavy warm breath on my neck as i kiss hers i can feel her moan some words out but she keeps on mumbling the words so I can't understand I slip my dick against her .... And she moans slightly "Xander more please.." She says "Can't till u cal me the proper name" "Darling.." I start to pound her again and she moans wrapping her feet around me "Please..." She moans into my ear And we both come I flop next to her and she snuggles into my chest hugging me "I love you" she says I smile and kiss her forehead I start to clean up and put my clothes back on and leave with her close to my chest
JESSICAS POV; I haven't seen xander for a while I wonder where he is , I look around but I can't spot him so I go looking for him, I open a door upstairs empty. I go to another room empty. I open a door downstairs and find a couple , railing each other on the floor , but the guy looks familiar, xander. With the popular girl I hear him saying "You're even better than jessica" and I start to tear up whilst he kisses her , I close the door and leave running to my house sobbing and crying my eyes off.
