" Amora , what is this in your phone ?" Her mom had yelled .
It was messages between me and this girl that i had met online . My parents are super religious and i knew if they found out i was a lesbian that they would freak out . but i didn't...
"Come on baby we are going to be late." billie said rushing me to get ready for this new year's eve party on a yacht.
I grabbed my purse and lipstick and went downstairs to meet them in the car. we drove down the the dock and got out to get on it when i stopped to get a picture for the gram
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492,483,585 and 584,4948 ,585 comments Amora : Happy new years babes 😙 billie: my fiancé is fine asap billielover: when's the wedding ?? eilish69:Stunning 😍 happy new year Destiny: bestieeee boo 😍😍
I posted my photo and locked my phone as we headed to the yacht with the rest of the family drew and destiny wasn't here due to them have their taste testing for their wedding . We was suppose to have it together but drew's mom is very ill that they had to push the date up . I walked up to the yacht where i was greeted my maggie and claudia . Maggie pulled us both to the side and started talking to us .
"So i was wondering in when you guys wanted to get married , like do you want to be engaged for a while or a wedding asap " she said
"Honestly, i feel like once you know you are going to spend the rest of your life with your person that you love then you can have a wedding as soon as you have everything g settled and your financially stable . So for me and billie i wouldn't mind a wedding now since we are stable and we just got to find dresses and suits and get everything planned then we can have the next available date for the venue." i said making both maggie and claudia grin
" I agreed with her , once you been in a relationship for so long and know that y'all both are mentally , physically and emotionally prepared then you need to make sure your financially prepared and if you are then fucking go for it . you only live once and you only get one shot at finding your true happiness at love ." claudia said
"Well in that case , i'm going to be planning your wedding soon . Please in the next couple days go dress shopping and send me ideas , colors and themes you guys like . I'm so happy that all of my babies are happy and taking the next big step in their life ." Maggie said kissing our cheeks as she walked away and i looked down at my hands playing with them
"I know you and Destiny have always wanted to have a wedding together and plan it but i know hers got pushed up due to difficult circumstances. I know we have grown so much closer that i look at you as my sister and i really consider you my friend . Fin would love to have his sister your wedding together . That way we can signify families coming together , i know you don't have a lot of family other than destiny so i want you to know you have me and i would love for us to have weddings together if that's okay with you " claudia said as i busting in tears
I love how this family sees me as their own , i've been scared to even talk about a wedding but i have no one that will show up to me and billies other than her family and it breaks my heart knowing without her i have no one other than destiny .
"Is it okay if we go somewhere and talk , you can say no cause i know it's new years and you're going to want your kids but i feel like destiny has to much on her plate and i didn't want to lay this all on billie" i said wiping my tears away
"Girl you don't have to ask cmon . you know how many new years we will have to kiss . Family always comes first " she said leading me down near a quiet area around pack as we dipped our feet in the water and talked
"I some times get in my feelings cause i'm going to get married and besides billies family i won't have a single one of mine , they hate the fact that i'm a lesbian . I got kicked out on my 18th birthday and immediately moved to miami, i have worked so hard every single day of my life to get where i'm at now and i'm exhausted. i love my job don't get me wrong but someone's i want a break . There's always something that i go through mentally and emotionally that i never get a chance to stop and breathe it's always work work , friends. and more work . Recently about 2 years ago before i met billie i was raped and drugged, it hurt me like hell and i never really got a chance to think about it or talk to someone about it i just pushed it away and wen ton with my life line i was happy . I'm happy as hell with billie but sometimes i feel those emotions and feelings start to come up and sometimes i push her away like recently when i just left and went on a drive and ended up staying at a hotel for 2 days i accused her of cheating cause i misunderstood the situation and just left .All of this just comes back to me not being able to process everything i been through since i left home . I feel like i'm suffocating " i said with tears down my eyes and didn't even realize that billie and fin had walked up to where we was sitting , they looked to stunned to speak
They took in all the information i given them and just looked at me
"We are so sorry we didn't know it was that kind of talk . we will leave " they both said freaking out
"No you can stay , i just wanted to be away from the crowd" i said looking down and they walked up near us sitting beside us
" You know it's okay to take a break right . You are sitting in so much money just from yourself that your job can wait . Take a break for your mental health is very important , i have taken plenty of breaks from my job . Hell im on one right now . I know you might not want talking really does help and i can see in your face and posture that you feel like baggage has been lifted off your shoulders . I'm sorry that so much shit has happened in your life but i promise you it would ever happen again cause this family will go to war behind you . I love you like a freaking sister and i want you to know that you can come to me at any point of time , you can text me at 5 am in the morning and i'll be there . i'll be there to listen , to talk to you , give you advice or even lend you a shoulder to cry on . Amora you are so so so strong and i really do think a mental break would be best for you." she said pulling me in a tight hug and we stayed there for about 20 mins as she just let me cry
"We love you Amora " fin and billie chimed in joining the hug and i laughed
"Billie , would you be okay if i take a mental break . I know you will see a lot more of me at home and i don't want to invite in your peace and quiet " i said looking at her
"Baby if i knew you was hurting so much i would have called your job myself . I love your presence! and that means more sexy time for me " she said jokingly and i just pushed her playfully
We all stood up and went back to the party since there was 2 mins left until the countdown
10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 "HAPPY NEW YEAR ! " everyone yelled and i pulled bills into a kiss
We all stayed for a few more hours talking , drinking and jumping into the cold water . It's been a really good day , it's been a really good life since billie walked into it . I love her so much , i couldn't be more thankful for her family
