Taken

[32] Gone But Never Far Away

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She's going, I can look in her bloodshot brown eyes and see that's what she wants.

She stares at me intently and we just look at each other, until she decides to talk.

"I love you Jahseh... but I'm gonna go back with my parents. They need this, they need me. I'm so sorry." She chokes on a sob and quickly covers her mouth.

I knew it, I knew she would choose to go with them, but I want her to do what'll make her happy.

I nod numbly and my breath and pulse start to quicken, my throat gets tight and I start blinking rapidly.

What the hell is happening to me?

Justine sobs again and move her hands, grabbing my head, pulling me closer to her.

"I'm sorry Jahseh, please don't cry." She wipes off my face and I frown, reaching up quickly to feel the wetness.

Fuck, I would be crying. Way to stay strong to show her I'm happy with her choice.

I kiss her head and glance out the tinted windows.

"Don't be sorry. I know this is what you want, I want to be able to give you this. I love you and I only want the best for you, and this is the best. I know it is." I look back into her eyes and she shakes her head, crying uncontrollably.

"W-What am I suppose to do w-without you? I've changed s-so much as a person because of you, Jahseh. I love you and I'll never be able to forget w-what we went through together." She sniffles softy and I wipe her face.

"I know Justine, I know. Trust me, you have changed so much, all of the guys molded around you. I love watching you walk around the house and light up every room you step foot in, but you need this and when you go back to school, if you find a nice guy who-" Her eyes widen and she cuts me off, frantically shaking her head.

"No, don't you dare do that Jahseh. I could never replace you." Her eyes water up again and I smile softly.

"Don't hold back for me. If you happen to find a nice guy, give him a chance. You're an amazing woman and I'd hate for you to stay alone because you're waiting for me... and don't go kicking guys in the balls either if they say you look good or some shit." I raise a brow at her and she giggle-sobs.

"What about you? I don't want you to sulk in the house with the guys. What if you find a nice girl?" She tries to cover up the pain in her eyes and I scoff.

"Honestly Justine, no girl can compare to you. You are just too different, but just right for me. I don't think I'd have enough patience and kindness to get to the relationship level that I'm at with you." I smirk and run my fingers through her hair. She giggles, the puffiness in her eyes slowly fading.

"Whatever Jahseh, you can if you tried. Really tried, no bullshit." She shove me playfully and I chuckle.

She is just so perfect.

I stare at her intensely and look over at her house. Her eyes start to water up again and I groan.

"Stop crying Justine. You're making this extremely difficult." I frown a little and she buries her face in my neck.

"I'm sorry, I'm just so sad. I really love you. I've never felt like this towards anyone before." She cries loudly into my chest, but I don't care. I stroke her hair.

"I know. Me either, remember? But I'm finding a way to let you go. You need to go, maybe we'll end up together again, but I don't want to you to deny good things just in hope of being with me again. I love you Justine. Always remember that." She lifts her head up and nods.