we sit in silence as the two of us stare up at the sky. the stars are bright.
i rest my chin on my hand, my hair falling over one of my shoulders.
i can slightly feel franks shoulder touching the top of my head.
"wanna talk about it?" he whispers.
i shake my head. "not really."
"thats okay." he reassures me. his girlfriend is lucky to have him.
its silent for a few more minutes.
"so what are your plans after high school?" i look at him and hes still staring at the sky.
"i mean i wanna go to college. my sister got into yale, and i kindve wanna follow after her."
"so yale?"
"maybe not yale exactly. princeton doesnt sound so bad." he shrugs and looks down at me.
"i never knew you had a sister. you seem like the only child type." i glance down at his lips for a second.
he shakes his head softly, "nope."
"so are you passionate about college?" i ask.
"i mean theres no other choice. id rather go to college then get a job, and itd probably be hard with just a high school degree." hes right about that.
"but i dont really mind going to college. ive already applied to a few but still have yet to hear back from them since i applied over the summer."
"a little late, hm?" i tilt my head.
"kindve. so you have already?" he asks me.
"im still looking into the colleges i wanna go to. i mean i wanted to go to nyu because new york, but honestly i dont think id get in."
"why not?"
"i just.. dont think i have what it takes." i shrug.
"thats stupid. from what ive seen i know you do."
"what have you seen?" i cross my arms to keep heat in.
"i mean.. personality wise i know youve got what it takes. youre sweet and empathetic. i mean you were a little cold at first but you warmed up to me." he compliments.
"yeah maybe personality wise but grade wise.."
"whatre youre grades?"
"straight As and occasional B+s."
"so what are you so worried about?" he rolls his eyes.
"i mean i dont know.." my gaze falls towards the floor of the porch and i begin to outline the lines.
"i just.. i wanna go to college and i know im smart enough to get in anywhere i want, and im flexible enough to make new friends but theres just doubt wandering around my mind." i lean back a bit.
"why would you ever doubt yourself? i mean you get straight As, from what you said.. im sure that means your GPA is high as fuck and thats all colleges really care about."
"i guess youre right. i just dont know why i feel some doubt, or like guilt? i dont know." i sigh.
"its normal to feel that way. but you said it yourself, you could get into any college you want."
i nod slowly.
"what do you wanna be?" i look back up at him.
he sighs deeply. "that.. i really dont know. i mean i know ive had all of highschool to think but im not sure what i wanna spend the rest of my life doing. what about you?" he meets my gaze again.
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# SNEAKY LINK
Fanfictionyou noticed him a few months after school started, although you've been going to the same school for 3 years. he was a senior, you were a junior. but, you decided to tell a close friend and you found out a lot of dirt on him. hes still cute though..
