Poems about Love

not the easiest one to love

I know I'm not the easiest to love.
But there are a few things that you should know
before you commit to loving me.

See, here's the thing.
I do not let a lot of people in,
I am cold with people before I know them.
And you may think that I'm being rude.
But all I'm doing, is protecting my fragile heart,
because I know the pain of my heart shattering into tiny pieces.
And I am not ready to go through that path one more time.

So forgive me.
Forgive me if I gave you a cold reply,
or if you saw my resting bitch face.
But trust me, if you knocked on the door once more,
I would let you in.

But again,
when I love someone,
I love them a lil too much.
I may get clingy, and I may act childish.
But that just shows that I'm comfortable with you.
And even when I'm behaving like a kid,
if anything comes up,
I'll be my mature self to help you through it.

I need you to love me the way I want to be loved,
because all my life I've been told that,
"You are loved."
But I never felt that love.
Because they always loved me in a way that I didn't want,
in a way that I didn't understand.

So, here it is:
I need you to remind me that I am loved on my good days and bad days.
I need you to check on me when you know that I've been feeling low.
I need you to help me understand myself.
I need you to just talk to me and sort it out if we've fought.
Sometimes, I need you to sit with me in the silence.
I need you to stay a lil longer on the days when I'm trying to push you away.
I need you to pull me in for a hug when I say, "Go away."
I need those random, "I love you," messages.
I need you to be patient with me.
Because I don't know when Mr. Anxiety will visit
and when my trust issues would start surfacing.

And no, I'm not being needy.
Because I don't think I'm wrong when I am only stating my needs
and how I want to be loved.
I am just clingy with the ones closest to my heart.
Otherwise, I am Miss 'I can do it by myself.'

I know, I am not the easiest to love.
Yet I have so much love to offer inside me,
but I've just not found the right person who deserves all of it.