CONNECTION BETWEEN US (ZhuiLing)

CHAPTER 25 - I'M HERE

  "I'm alone. I'm scared.", Jin Ling mumbled,his body shiver out of sadness and from bottle up all the stress and problems.

  "I'm here. What do you mean alone? Aren't we friends?", Lan Sizhui pat Jin Ling's back gently.

  Jin Ling looks up at Lan Sizhui with eyes widened from surprised."we are?.."

  "Silly you.. of course. Why would I be helping you out right now? Besides, everyone need help when they're in their hardest situation..", Lan Sizhui chuckled.

  "What happened...", Jin Ling rubbed his teary eyes.

  "You passed out at the Dafan Mountain. We had to bring you here and inform Sect Leader Jiang.", Lan Sizhui explained.

  "When that thing stared at me,I was..frozen.. I couldn't move. Then.. i"

  "-collapsed.",Lan Sizhui finished Jin Ling's speech.

  "Thank fully,I managed to caught you in time. I rested your head on my lap while I was trying to wake you up and called Hanguang-Jun by signal.",Lan Sizhui caress Jin Ling's head gently.

  "I- you rest my head on your lap?! Why would you-"

  "I had to. Beside,there's no other great place to rest your head down. Why?",Lan Sizhui raised an eyebrow.

  Jin Ling blushed and then look away."Nothing..."

  "Was it because you think it's embarrassing?", Lan Sizhui asked.

  No answer from the embarrassed Jin.

  Lan Sizhui chuckled softly, "It's alright if you don't answer. After that,I had to carried you-"

  "You carried me?!", Jin Ling's eyes widen more.

  "Yea,that's the only way. Beside, I could balance myself while i was carrying you as I stood on my sword on the way here.", Lan Sizhui smiles softly.

  "I-..", Jin Ling felt guilty that he kind of pulled people into trouble."i'm sorry.... you.. should've just left me dead."

  "Pardon?.. Jin Ling, Don't think that way.", Lan Sizhui eyes widen with shock.

  "I'm better off dead. Why am I still alive? Here. And without my parents with me?", Jin Ling could feel his tears rolled down slowly.

  "What about your jiu-jiu?", Lan Sizhui asked.

  Jin Ling was surprised, and then his face sadden,"does he care?".

  "He does. He went all the way here for you.", Lan Sizhui felt sorry to see someone cry in front of him.

  Jin Ling covers his face and cries quietly. Lan Sizhui pulled him into a hug, remembered the first time he comforted him.

  "It's okay.. I'm here. You can talk to me..I'll listen..", Lan Sizhui hug him,kept him close, and his hand caressed the other's hair.

   "What did you see during your unconscious?...", Lan Sizhui asked.

  ". . .", Jin Ling uncovered his face and look down with his hands on his chest. It hurts him more than the loop nightmare.

   "I see.. I feel. Like I'm in a world I want. To be with my parents that would be alive. But I know in that moment, it's all fake.", Jin Ling let out more tears from his eyes.

  Lan Sizhui knew that whatever about his parents was a deep pain to Jin Ling. He wiped the other's tears and caressed his cheek gently.

  "Then...? What happened after?", Lan Sizhui asked as he kept his eyes on the sad boy's eyes that looked down.

  "I kept denying that it's real. Then,I was in somewhere black. I heard voices. Voices that knows my secret..", Jin Ling tighten his grip around his own wrist. "It also showed picture of my past.. which I hate to remember."

   Lan Sizhui noticed that and he remembered. "Jin Ling."

   Jin Ling look up to meet the other's eyes. He wiped his own tears and asked, "what?.."

  Lan Sizhui lean closer to whispered in his ear to make sure Jin Ling could hear it clearly. "... stop cutting yourself... Please."

  Jin Ling's eyes widen with shock, "how did you.."

   "When I check your wrist for heart rate, I saw it. Fresh and red. Did you just... cut yourself a few days ago?..", Lan Sizhui whispered some more.

  Jin Ling's face sadden,"I guess I couldn't hide it,right?.. haha.. I just did it.. yesterday.."

  "Yesterday?!", Lan Sizhui lean away from Jin Ling's ears.

  "Whenever.. people mentioned me about my parents,I..  I just.. have the feeling to just.. harm..", Jin Ling look down, he rest his head against Lan Sizhui's chest.

  "They must be disappointed in me, don't they?"

  Lan Sizhui sigh,"they don't know. Only me."

  "You don't.. tell them?..",Jin Ling look up with disbelief. "I.. thank you.."

  "I know it's hard to stop yourself.. but try to help yourself by doing something you like to distract yourself. What do you like to do?", Lan Sizhui asked.

  "Playing with Fairy..", Jin Ling answered. "Walk around the garden that have beautiful flowers.. which remind me of my late mother..."

   Jin Ling smiled softly as he mention about the garden and his late mother.

  "See? You're already distracting yourself with it.", Lan Sizhui chuckle,still caressed the other's hair.

   Jin Ling chuckle softly." That's.. Good..."

   Lan Sizhui kept looking at Jin Ling. He felt like he want to keep this one safe and close to him. His heart beat race faster as he felt the butterflies in him. 'Is this love?..', his thoughts asked himself.

   Jin Ling could hear Lan Sizhui's heart beat race faster, but he finds it comforting. Like a music in his ears, so he stayed close.

   "If you.. want to sleep.. you can",Lan Sizhui whispered.

  Jin Ling nodded and yawned, "You're right.."

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