Best Friend [DoDam]

twenty nine

Doyoung and Hyunsuk were at the grocery store, buying the things they needed for the vacation they would do tomorrow. As they walked through the aisles, Hyunsuk noticed that Doyoung kept touching his lips with his fingers, as if he was trying to erase something. He found it odd, but he didn't say anything at first. He thought maybe Doyoung had a cold sore or something. But when Doyoung did it for the tenth time, Hyunsuk couldn't help but ask

"Hey, what's with you touching your lips?" Hyunsuk asked, nudging him with his elbow

Doyoung quickly withdrew his hand and looked away. "It's nothing hyung. Don't worry about it" he said, trying to sound casual

Hyunsuk was not convinced, but he decided not to press the issue. He knew that Doyoung would tell him if he wanted to

As they continue roaming around the grocery store, Doyoung suddenly asked Hyunsuk a question that caught him off guard "Hyunsuk hyung, can I ask you something?"

"Sure, Doyoung. What is it?" Hyunsuk said

"Did you ever kiss Jihoon hyung when you were still friends?" Hyunsuk blinked twice, surprised by the question. He looked at Doyoung, who was staring at him with a curious expression

"Why do you ask that, Doyoung?" Hyunsuk asked, feeling confused. He look at Doyoung, his eyes telling if Doyoung really asking that question

Doyoung shrugged. "I don't know, I was just wondering. You and Jihoon have been friends for a long time, right? And then you became boyfriends. How did that happen?"

Hyunsuk sighed. He knew that Doyoung was not trying to be rude, but he felt like he had to explain himself

"Well, Doyoung, we kissed, a lot. But it's not like we kissed out of the blue. We had feelings for each other for a while, but we didn't know how to express them. We were afraid of ruining our friendship, or being rejected, or being judged. So we kept it to ourselves, until one day, we couldn't take it anymore. We confessed to each other, and then we kissed. It was the best moment of my life, Doyoung. I love Jihoon, and he loves me. We're happy together"

Doyoung nodded, listening to Hyunsuk's story. He felt a pang of envy in his chest, but he quickly suppressed it. He was happy for his cousin, who had found his true love. He wished he could be as lucky as him

Hyunsuk smiled, seeing that Doyoung understood him. He decided to turn the tables on him, and ask him a question of his own. "Why did you ask that? Don't tell me you kissed your best friend" he said, sternly. He know the younger won't asked him that question if it's nothing, that's so random of him

Doyoung's eyes widened, and he blushed. He looked away, avoiding Hyunsuk's gaze. "Uh, well, yeah, I did" he admitted, in a low voice

Hyunsuk gasped, shocked by the revelation. "What? When? How? Why?" Hyunsuk bombarded Doyoung with questions

Doyoung groaned, wishing he had kept his mouth shut. He knew that Hyunsuk would not let him go until he told him everything "Okay, okay, calm down, hyung. It's not a big deal. It was just a kiss, nothing more" he said, trying to downplay the situation

Hyunsuk was not buying it. He crossed his arms and raised his eyebrows, waiting for Doyoung to continue

"Fine, fine. It happened last time, we we just got home after having fun in the bar. We were both drunk... Or just me. I guess. Anyways, When I was about to go out of his car, the chains on my jeans got stuck in the seat so Yedam help me get it out. An then I was we just kissed. It was spontaneous, and it was brief, and it was awkward. We didn't say anything after that, we just pretended like nothing happened. And that's it. That's the whole story"

Hyunsuk stared at Doyoung, not sure what to make of his story. He felt a mix of emotions, ranging from disbelief, to confusion, to anger

"Doyoung, are you crazy?" Hyunsuk exclaimed, scolding his cousin. "How could you kiss Yedam, just like that? Do you have any idea what you've done? You've messed up everything, Doyoung. You've messed up your friendship, and you've messed up your feelings. How do you think Yedam feels about this? How do you feel about this?"

Doyoung looked down, feeling guilty and ashamed. He knew that Hyunsuk was right, he had made a mistake. He had acted on impulse, without thinking of the consequences. He had kissed Yedam, his best friend, who recently just got into breakup

"I don't know hyung. I don't know how I feel. I'm confused, okay? I don't know if I like Yedam, or if I just like him as a friend. I don't know what to do, Hyunsuk. I don't know what to say to him. I don't know anything, hyung. I'm sorry, okay? I'm sorry"

Doyoung's voice broke, and he started to cry. He covered his face with his hands, and sobbed. He felt like he had ruined everything, and he didn't know how to fix it

Hyunsuk's anger melted away, and he felt sorry for his cousin. He realized that Doyoung was hurting, and he needed his support. He moved closer to him, and wrapped his arms around him. He hugged him tightly, and comforted him. Hyunsuk whispered soothing words to Doyoung, trying to calm him down

"Listen, Doyoung. I'm here for you, okay? I know you're confused about what you're feeling right now. All I want is for you to be sure of what you feel. Doyoung I don't want you to be hurt, you know that Yedam just went from break up, he's vulnerable. I don't want you to end up as his rebound"

Doyoung nodded, wiping his tears. He appreciated Hyunsuk's concern, but he also felt conflicted. He couldn't deny that he had felt something when he kissed Yedam. He couldn't ignore the butterflies in his stomach, the warmth in his chest, the tingling in his lips. He couldn't forget the way Yedam looked at him, with those deep brown eyes. He couldn't help but wonder if Yedam felt the same way.

But he also knew that Hyunsuk had a point. Yedam had just broken up with his girlfriend, not so long ago. He was probably still hurting, and maybe he was just longing for someone's kiss. Maybe he regretted what they did

Doyoung didn't know what to do. He wanted to talk to Yedam, to clear the air, to find out the truth. But he was also afraid of what he might hear, of what he might say, of what he might do. He was afraid of being rejected, of being hurt, of being alone

He sighed, and buried his face in Hyunsuk's shoulder. He wished he could go back in time, and undo what he had done

But he knew that wishes were not enough. He knew that he had to face reality, and deal with the consequences. He knew that he had to make a choice, and live with it

He knew that he had to follow his heart, or let it go