*✿═══════════════✿* *hand scars* *Part :13* https://mihraskoduvally123.blogspot.com/2023/10/blog-post.html *✿═══════════════✿* https://instagram.com/she.is.dream.maker?igshid=ZGUzMzM3NWJiOQ== https://www.instagram.com/invites/contact/?i=o7hsgxz71i40&utm_content=8ex74zs A fear of falling, as if the eyes were filled with darkness by the time he stood up. I called my mother two or three times in my best voice. To call another headWhen I realized that there was no one, I sat quietly. That sitting lasted for about an hour, then I slowly got up, changed my dress, went down, took the vulu and went to the room and prayed. It was in the kitchen that I could clearly hear the conversation when I got closer "What's this, man? "This is a pregnancy test, you gave her this and tell her to look. ILike a reluctance to give something, "Hey, hey, who said she's pregnant, man? Are feelings supposed to be right? "Oh," said Umm. There is nothing wrong with looking. Oh, that's it, it feels like fatigue. "Umma will decide all this. Ikka walked away without answering Umman's question. When he saw me on the way, he lowered his head and climbed up. Umm came walking towards me. "You test it in the morning, Mon gave it to you. II bought it and kept it, I was in a hurry to confirm the news, the poor man was overwhelmed with happiness, but the only thing that was not clear was the character of Oomman, when he gave it to me, Oomman's face scared me a lot... Umm why do you hate me so much? "Molluse, Look back "Um" Come on, Ika took me to the room "You should eat good food, drink water. If you lie like this,You will not be able to give birth to anything, take good care., When I come, I have brought fruits, you should always eat them. Also, the dates are in the fridge, don't forget to eat them too, but when you get up and walk around, it's like you're not healthy. I was filled with happiness as soon as I listened to Ikan's speech with a smile and a serious expression. “Um. I hummed and finished saying everything in one breath. "It's not enough to hum,For the sake of our child. "Aiikote Ika, I will listen, so that I can get up." Ika got up and left, I gave Ika apple juice, Ika drank half and gave the rest, I drank it. In any case, whether I am near or far, I feel a great peace when I am here. But sometimes his silence hurts me a lot. Sometimes it's quiet, love is happiness. Sometimes it's fear and anger, and sometimes it's sadness.... I just don't know what to say... I don't know what to ask and I don't understand these situations. I ate food and finished my work. I also went to the room above Ikus and slept. It is a great pleasure when I lie on Ikan's chest like this. I was playing on the phone. Ika understood that and looked at me and lay down. I then lay like that. Sadness convulsed my throat. Anyway, much more than beforehas changed. The old love and care has diminished. Even in this room, I can't think of it like I'm alone. But they are not human, Ikak may have some difficulty that he doesn't tell me, if it bothers me to ask, I didn't ask, Ikak always smells of oot, like my uncle, Ikak will use perfume with a different smell. Oh, it smells really bad. "Don't forget, you should check tomorrow" Um, they are playing on the phone without even thinking about it."Um, sure, sit in peace, man, we've got a monuse coming. I like moneas," he said. "Um, did you sign that, too?" "Look, I will have a mon like me. "May Allah bless us with Um Salihayat Amen" Amen. Ikak Ipo, there is only the thought of Uppa Uppa, and the person is very happy. "Look at this." Ika handed the phone to me. "Who is this kid? "Ah, I went to a lot of steps yesterday, and it will be like thisOur Mon, I replied with a smile. "When I saw that man, I thought this is how we are, man, so I took the photo. I didn't say anything, the joy of finding him a happy and loving person after a few days was running through my mind. Sometimes this love that I see is enough words for me to think of when I feel lonely. Ika is full of happiness when she thinks about the child. But! By the time I sat next to IkTrying to change. I don't understand, I really don't understand, sometimes I think like this because I think it will be difficult for me. But what can I do when Ika tries to avoid my presence sometimes... Everything will be fine when a baby is born. "Did you sleep?" "No, I have also forgotten about you, Mon. How fun it would be to hear Mon call me Dad. " Um, mom and dad saw us firstAs happiness consists of nirvritti. "Um, O Lord, let us have a good pearl in this world and in the hereafter. " Um, may Allah make it so Amen" Amen. Ikan's words are full of happiness! If I move closer, that wealth turns into poverty. Ikka tries to get up and leave. Telling me to move and lie down. Otherwise, the elder is lying on the sofa. For whatever reasonIf you had realized that you want that presence now... if you had touched this tiredness, if you had looked at it with relief... Anyway the thought of my baby brightens my days... just those thoughts... I too am in a hurry to be in the morning, and we lie down remembering the pearl, how long this night is, our hurry to confirm the news, the night is so long.I don't know when sleep overtook us in the parts of the discussion and this is what woke me up today. "Hey, don't you throw up, time's up, I slowly got up and walked. "Dude, take it and test it. Don't forget it. It seems that I did not sleep after thinking about this. Anyway, I took it and walked. As if we were counting, I became a mother and I became a father. Then good news for himHe informed me that maybe because of his overwhelming happiness, Ika did not say anything to me. I firmly believe that Ikka's silence is now only happiness. All the family members were informed. Like a little child, Ika's happiness ran around the house and heard those voices all the time. Ika has not forgotten to call her family members and friends. However Still Ikka didn't say anything to me, Ikka's words with love ended yesterdayAs usual, I slowly moved to the kitchen and looked at my program in relief. I went to the church and felt like I was alone again Fatigue and sadness increased day by day. I couldn't even sit up and wash a few newspapers. In between, at least 3.4 times, I regularly sit with my eyes closed.I didn't say it because I felt it. When I called him and asked about things, I got a reply that I can't come to see the doctor. And to whom to tell, but I heard Ika call Umma but since I was there, Umma went away and talked to me, I hoped that Umma would tell about the situation, but as expected, I don't know what Umma said. In any case, Ikka did not come here. Somehow that one day passed, I must have seen my bed. As per my uncle's instructions, my mother took me to the doctor.The doctor checked and argued with Umma and said admit, but still Umma looked at me and looked at me. Sadness filled my eyes and tears started to flow out. I didn't say anything. But the doctor continued "If you take her in this condition, you can take her if you sign that the hospital is not responsible for anything that happens to her... On hearing that, Umm didn't say anything and stood there, the room was fullI was taken to the upper ward in a wheelchair and put on a trip, I lay down and waited for Ikka to come. It was late afternoon and I didn't see any good appetite. I waited and waited. In the evening, the doctor came for a check-up. Looked things up. When she said that she did not eat anything, she heard her telling her to buy something. Umm sent someone to buy parip vada and tea and I ate it. A little relief. The dosa eaten in the morning as well as the cold waterAnd I really can't. By the time you put it in your mouth, the return hits. It's a story... mine, and isn't everyone like this at this time... when you can do something, sometimes you can't do anything. By the time Ikka came, it was almost Maghrib, when I saw Ikka, I tried to get up, I gestured that Ikka should lie down, anyway, there is a lot of anger on my face, it seems that everything is my act... When I came, my mother and I were outside for a whileTalked to her, then never came to Ika's side, by the time the trip was over it was 10: pm. After receiving the discharge, we returned home, Ika did not speak to me, I washed the paper that I had put on the food, I went to the upper room, Ika was lying there, then I remembered today's full prayer and Kalah, then I prayed a little bit, and then I fell down in the middle of the prayer. He lost consciousness... and when he regained consciousness, he sat down and prayed. AfterI went and lay down next to Ikan and waited for a while thinking that Ikan would say nothing and then just looked at Ikan's face. It's so bad. Why are you doing this to me...I haven't slept. When I came, I saw what I saw and by then I was lying down with my eyes closed. , a word for something….look… I expected at least the word "nothing, not for our happiness". In a few days, the distance between Ikka and I had come a long way. I have love insideOr hate me? Or... I know nothing... Anyway, one thing is for sure... being together has filled me with joy. But! Towards me who conceives that child.... .... . Exhaustion quickly drove me to sleep. Those carrying arms held me down again. By the time I tried to make a sound, the grip was tight around my neck and I was gasping for breath... only a distorted figure in the darkened room towards me.Turned back... *to be continued* *✍🏻mihras koduvally* ▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪ *ISHQE-MADEENA* ◾◾◾◾◾◾◾◾◾◾◾
